Letting me go

Dad and Mama, I love you, I really do,
I can’t think of my world without you!

No more kiss good-night,
No more dad to hold me tight.
No more hugs to calm my fears,
No more hands to wipe my tears!
No more tucking in at night.

But I know I will see you once again
And then you will hold me tight,
When we are together again.

l want to be selfish and share
But what I want just isn’t fair.
Dad, I am living of dull life
Without you here by my side,

Mama, as long as I live
Not a moment will go by
When I don’t wish you were with me.

Daddy I love you, I really do,
Mama I love you, I really do,
Daddy I know you have to leave me
But I told you I don't want to go,
Why did you let me be alone,
Let me go.

I show no fear in my eyes and face
But I am scared without you besides me,

I don't want to cry when I'm talking to you,
But I cry when I'm alone.
Dad and Mama,

Just remember I will always love you.

LOVE .. DEATH

I am entering into the blogging world after 4 weeks of hectic and fun trip to Paris. This is a second guest post of my blog. It was written by siva who is a doctor and has a vivid sense of humor. Siva, has become a close companion in a very short period of time due to the fact that I enjoy his blah blah.. i.e Writing. He had FINALLY completed his MBBS and now doing his intern. I love what he writes and this story is something I hope you will all like. Siva writes @ My Experience with me 

He n Anamika got married recently n as usual they loved each other

for a brief period before marriage..

He s a civil Eng in a leading construction company n she a

program writer with rich father .She was unique - this unique doesnt

mean what all gals use in social networking sites profile in "about me" ..

she was really unique , bcos she

had BPD [ Bipolar disorder] (a form of psychiatric illness ppl with this ,

go to their extremes of mood either happy or sad ,btw they r normal ,

u cant easily diagnose them as most persons reading this blog r like that!! ) ..

And she was diagnosed early when she got her first depression n maniac

episodes after mother's death n

doctors assured her its very mild n she can lead a normal life with her drugs.

They were true she was quite normal after that n only once she got the

maniac form of elated mood thats when he proposed her ..

Like any other lover during love with a rich man's daughter

he dint mind about her illness n told her u r normal, only these docs r

confusing u to get few bucks from u .. she felt happy for him .
CHAPTER - I
He was starting his car from construction site to pick her from

office , he hated his job with dust n noise .. but she loved her office with all

forms of luxury n pleasant room spray ..

IN CAR

He : Hi ! good evening ..

She: gud evening.. u smell like a sheep :)

He : oh.. n u smell like n whore ..;)

she : ya.. i;m a whore to one man ..

IN HALL

He tries to give a instant hug but she resists with a smile n enters kitchen

.. it happens everytime n he curses himself " y these gals change after a yr

of marriage n becomes more professional even in bed "

DURING DINNER

Their conversation was mostly around their respective firms development n

movement of shares in stock exchange .. neither of them was looking into eyes,

during love when they had dinner the room fills with laughter n they had smiles

before each spoon of food n both used to compliment each other.. everything

has changed after marriage..

IN BEDROOM

After taking her tablet she checks the prescription for review date with the

doctor n files it back.. He always get irritated with her mr.perfect behavior of

filing things n even scold without knowing its going to save his life.. Like other

routine things making love also happens ,just happens within a time to make

two maggi noodles ..

though neither of them get satisfied they were too egoistical to mention it or

ask more.. Next day

Sun comes out n their routine continues as schedule ..


CHAPTER - II

one day she has to return home earlier... when she comes home n opens

bedroom door , she sees everything normal in the room .. her husband , two

pillows, teddy bear , a water Jug Except an extra 5' 7" feet

creature curling along with her husband in bed .

CHAPTER - III

She made a call to her father ... then she died .

Autopsy Report : suicide , cause of death - opening up veins in bath tub.

CHAPTER - IV

Her father "U killed her, bloody basterd, i dint like u from the start "

He "U r getting too hysterical ,what happened s an unfortunate event n

am feeling sad for u n ur daughter , but dont blame me, i think its bcos of

her condition ..."

Her father "Shut up !! all these days u dint mind about that (BPD) n argued

that she s normal , now to save ur skin u r playing ur cards"

He "Dont use strong words sir .. i find no fault in me, ok let me be open

with u .. i agree i loved her, but i was never satisfied with

her n found soon after marriage that

she can never satisfy me , but i never want to leave her for that reason n so

i found my own way of satisfying myself ..its very normal..think sir.. when u dont

like or bored with homemade food dont u go to hotel or get a parcel of hotel

food to home ..which s precisely what i did :) "

Her Father "I ve never seen such a smooth talking basterd like u in my life ,

i'm going to court of law "

He "ofcourse sir.."

CHAPTER - V

The court was centered around an as usual unenthusiastic n grumpy judge

with no ears for emotions ..

Her Father - This man pushed her to end her life..this must

not be taken as suicide , its a homicide ..

JUDGE - [ after verifying the neatly aligned her prescription files from first visit

of doctor ] was she a known psychiatric patient ?

Her Father - Its irrelevant to case sir ..this man's adultery caused my

daughter's Life ..

JUDGE - was she under treatment for BPD ?

Her Father - Lord ..but this man pushed her to ..

JUDGE [irritatingly]
- was she a patient with bipolardisorder ,under

treatment n do u agree these prescription in files belongs

to her n do u know her psychiatric illness before ..? say yes or no!!

Her Father - YES !!

JUDGE - Case dismissed .

* THE END *

P.s:

Q1- Do u agree with the judgment?

Q2- Do u think He is innocent ?

Q3- Do u believe her cause of death s due to her BPD alone ?

Things men always wanted to tell women….

This being the first guest post on my blog, I thank SIDDHESH from SID-O-SCOPE. We, bloggers, call him Sid. He is the funny man of the blogger world. He is one of the most optimistic creatures that were ever born in the world. He writes for the passion and Fame. Sid, Thank you for giving this post on time. : P

Long time ago when God created first man, he knew nothing… he learned roaring from the lion,
he learned hunting from the tiger, he learned puffing his chest from the gorillas… God watched in pride his accomplishment and was fairly pleased with his creation… created the first woman who came inbuilt with all the powers, the man took ages to master. So the next time the man decided to roar…well…

So like now Raji asked me to open those things which men have been trying to trying to speak up for like…ages, with not sound effect.
Now as a personal note, remember its not me, it the whole male population, don't blame the messenger, blame the message. Ok, still want to kill me? I am going down bury myself in sand and hide. 

Now take a deep breath and read the list until I run away from here.
1. No, I will not meet your sister's husband's sister-in-law's husband's sister over lunch. (or any other relative for that matter, and I won't keep a track of what exactly is their relation with you or me)
2. No, I am NOT upset with you. NOR, am I NOT in love with you. India just lost the match last evening and I do not want to talk about it… like ever. (This is true)
3. I am drinking to forget the last match which India lost. (Don't ask me again)
4. I cannot remember the birthdays of your family and friends, no and I do NOT remember the day we met, NOR am I interested in celebrating our Weekiversary (what the hell does it mean btw?), monthliversary (ok, seriously!!!!)
5. For God sake, the rear wear mirror of your car is NOT supposed to be used to check if your hair, lipstick, makeup and traffic red-light is definitely NOT a place to do it. (And no I am not honking my horn for last minute because you are pretty, drive on)
6. No, you do not look fat in this dress, you look fat in ALL your clothes. (Fatness is irrespective of the clothes)
7. No, I was NOT looking at you, I AM looking at the chocolate in your hand. (Ok, this is an excuse, I was looking at you, but 
its not eve teasing, you are pretty and you know it…bhaav mat kha and yes I want that chocolate, I am hungry)
8.  No, it is not cute, that I carry your BAGS all the way across mall, while you PRAISE I am so sweet. (And it is also not cute that you talk to your friends how I carry your bag, while I am still there)
9. No, your Scooty is NOT a good place to sit in the middle of the road, chatting with a friend, who is sitting on her scooty, about your college days during rush hour. (and middle of the street does not sound good meeting place either)
10. I cannot read your mind, please speak. (I am a normal human being)
A note, I am simply a messenger, don't blame me. I did not say the things, I said above.
Disclaimer: The whole thing is written in good faith and in only meant for fun. It has no relationship with any person, group of persons or totally anyone.

Babies

We have a new neighbour who has a 2 months old baby. She is the most divine thing you would ever see. Being with her almost everyday for the past one week made me think of this poem. I really want one of those!! Truly god's creation Beautiful babies!  

Those little pink pounds of flesh,

Fresh from the heavens above.

Sudden spurt of crib and crèche,

And loads and loads of love.

They come with a cry,

Take over with a bang,

They wipe away sigh,

And every sad song sang.

Demands from the first gasp,

They make to feed and change;

There's never an open clasp,

To sort life or even rearrange

They are answers to prayers, 

And come to add meaning,

To babble and teddy bears,

And timely spring cleaning

The first turn, the first, "mum",

The first flip, the first crawl;

The first step, the first tantrum,

The first pet, the first brawl.

Suddenly, there is never a dull second. 

Suddenly, there is sunshine all around.

Suddenly, there is parenting reckoned.

Suddenly, the need for practice ground.

They are our lessons in innocence.

They stand for all so pure and true.

Babies are the only quintessence,

Of the vast love that is within you.

The New Find

Do you want to get rid of boredom?

Loosen its control to regain your freedom!

Lull in your dull life, let it not behold.

You can be out of its clutches and hold!

Being always pensive welcomes melancholy.

This is the culprit of our life’s anomaly.

In busy life, its dwelling is dormant.

Inactivity makes boredom go rampant.

Do something of interest to you.

Or, inculcate liking in whatever you do!

Keep your search on till you find one.

It is extremely rare that you find none?!

Be it whatever, let not lethargy engulf.

Just eat and belch make life miserably tough.

Enthusiasm and eagerness must be kept alive.

These keep the charm of living from going to archive!

Come on and gear up to start afresh and new!

The startling new ‘find’ may belong to only "you"!!!

The Voice

She woke up in a white room, on a white bed. Artificial light swallowing her up from the fluorescent lights above. Blinking a few times, she sits up, her pale skinned arms holding the bed on each side of her. And then, she hears him, and remembers where she is and why.
"Good morning, sleepy head. Did you have a nice sleep?"
"Go away."
"Come on now, Neha. We go through this every day. Haven't you learned already?"
He laughs. That sick, evil laugh echoes through her head. She hates it, hates him. Wants him to leave her alone but he won't. The pills.. They don't work. The doctor and nurses say they will but she knows for a fact that he'll never disappear. They don't hear him, so how could they know!
"Leave me alone. Please!"
She falls off the bed, and crawls to the corner of the room. The room is completely lit, it's not possible for any shadows to be there because of this right? Then why.. why is there a shadow standing right in front of her, with a big disgusting grin on it's face?
"Let's play a game, little Neha."
"No.. I don't want to play with you. I just want you to go away."
"Tsk tsk. You know I can't do that. I was born for you, so how could I ever leave you?"
Holding her hands over her ears, she shuts her eyes tightly. But she can still hear him. Hear the malice dripping off his every word.
"I won't leave you Neha. And you can never escape me."
She lets out a scream and runs to the door. It opens with ease. She notices that no one has even come to see what the scream was about. Even as she's running down the corridor, panting and crying, no one is giving the littlest glance.
"And I thought you said you didn't want to play."
"No. Don't follow me, leave me alone!"
She finds a door that leads to the stairs. Quickly opening it, she runs down stairs and stairs until she reaches a door with a sign on it saying, 'Ground Floor'.
"Someone, help me please!"
She stands in the middle of the lobby, trying to catch her breath. There are many people around, doctors, nurses, patients, and even visitors. No one looks at her.
"Why.. why won't they look at me? Are they ignoring me?"
"Ahah, silly babe. They aren't ignoring you. They simply can't see nor hear you."
"W-What do you mean?"
"You are as I am. Nonexistent to the outside world."
Her body starts to shake, and without a warning, she hits the floor screaming. Blood starts to gush from her wrists and throat. No... it isn't blood. It's thick and black... and smells of death.
"Wha- What's happening to me?!"
"You are dead. Don't you remember? I kept telling you, you can't escape from me. Even death cannot save you from what's a part of you. And I, Arun, live in your conscious, and have always been a part of you."
"Wha-"
Before her eyes, it's like a movie playing. She sees herself, in her little white room, nothing but a window and mirror on the walls. She can hear herself talking, can hear him as well.
"If you won't leave me alone, I'll make you!"
"Now now, that won't do at all. I'll follow you, Neha. I will follow you anywhere and everywhere. No matter how hard you wish for me to go away, no matter how many pills you swallow, I'll always be here."
She watches the memory where she breaks the mirror. As the glass slides across her wrists deeply, and then finally across her own throat. She shudders as his wicked laugh echos through the empty room. The life flows from her veins, and his shadowed body laps the blood from her neck.
"You'll never be rid of me, Neha. Never."

Then in a flash, it's all gone. Her eyes open and she's in her bed again, not a single recollection of what happened just seconds ago. She sits up in her bed, both hands on either side of her...
"Good morning, sleepy head. Did you have a nice sleep?"
Another day of an endless hell begins, a never ending loop of death. A punishment for taking the life God gave her, or maybe just a way for the voice to prove that she can never rid herself of him.

Lost you forever…

Being with you was like having every single one of my wish come true....

But now I HAVE LOST YOU....!

I know our roads will never cross again & i will never get to see you in my life...

Because......, I HAVE LOST YOU...!

I still miss you every second of my life.

Dream about you all day long....

But i don't LOVE YOU anymore.

Whenever i think about you...,The chill hits every part of my body.

I left you behind in my Past....But "MEMORIES" of you are still haunting me very badly...

I don't even want to try to get you back in my life,

Because i know I HAVE LOST YOU FOREVER...!

I always wanted to hold your hand when i walked on the street.

I always wanted & wished to look into your eyes when i wanted to feel nice.

But today i am all ALONE....and now i don't have any expectations to get you back in my LIFE.

Because I HAVE LOST YOU...!

I still remember the day you came into my LIFE and turned my life into a "PARADISE".

I came to know WHAT LOVE IS? Because of YOU.

The time we shared was a treasure to me.

I always wanted you to feel exactly what i feel for you.

But somewhere i failed to do so.

THE day i met you gave me the reason to smile.

I never felt alone because i know you were always with me...

But you walked away....

Without even knowing HOW WILL I FEEL ???

Without even knowing HOW MUCH I LONG TO BE WITH YOU ???

Without even knowing HOW WILL I LEAD MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU ???

Without even knowing HOW MUCH I NEED YOU ???

Without even knowing "HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU"

Was that LOVE.... I see in your eyes???

Or it was merely a reflection of mine.

When i needed you the most,you left me.

When i needed a shoulder to cry on,you were not there.

When i think, I just think of you.

The Love of yours has touched me "ONE TIME" & will last for "LIFETIME".

I have still kept the memories of are "LOVE" alive.

I desire nothing more than to be with you forever until i die.

But now I HAVE LOST YOU...!!!

I let you go..Because I have realized that......,

YOU WERE NEVER MINE & YOU WILL NEVER BE.

YOU know WHY??????

Because.......

SOMEONE IN SOME CORNER OF THIS WORLD MIGHT BE WAITING FOR 

**ME & MY LOVE**