Showing posts with label love yourself. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love yourself. Show all posts

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

LOVE .. DEATH

I am entering into the blogging world after 4 weeks of hectic and fun trip to Paris. This is a second guest post of my blog. It was written by siva who is a doctor and has a vivid sense of humor. Siva, has become a close companion in a very short period of time due to the fact that I enjoy his blah blah.. i.e Writing. He had FINALLY completed his MBBS and now doing his intern. I love what he writes and this story is something I hope you will all like. Siva writes @ My Experience with me 

He n Anamika got married recently n as usual they loved each other

for a brief period before marriage..

He s a civil Eng in a leading construction company n she a

program writer with rich father
.She was unique - this unique doesnt

mean what all gals use in social networking sites profile in "about me" ..

she was really unique , bcos she

had BPD [ Bipolar disorder] (a form of psychiatric illness ppl with this ,

go to their extremes of mood either happy or sad ,btw they r normal ,

u cant easily diagnose them as most persons reading this blog r like that!! ) ..

And she was diagnosed early when she got her first depression n maniac

episodes after mother's death n

doctors assured her its very mild n she can lead a normal life with her drugs.

They were true she was quite normal after that n only once she got the

maniac form of elated mood thats when he proposed her ..

Like any other lover during love with a rich man's daughter

he dint mind about her illness n told her u r normal, only these docs r

confusing u to get few bucks from u .. she felt happy for him .
CHAPTER - I
He was starting his car from construction site to pick her from

office , he hated his job with dust n noise .. but she loved her office with all

forms of luxury n pleasant room spray ..

IN CAR

He : Hi ! good evening ..

She: gud evening.. u smell like a sheep :)

He : oh.. n u smell like n whore ..;)

she : ya.. i;m a whore to one man ..


IN HALL

He tries to give a instant hug but she resists with a smile n enters kitchen

.. it happens everytime n he curses himself " y these gals change after a yr

of marriage n becomes more professional even in bed "

DURING DINNER

Their conversation was mostly around their respective firms development n

movement of shares in stock exchange .. neither of them was looking into eyes,

during love when they had dinner the room fills with laughter n they had smiles

before each spoon of food n both used to compliment each other.. everything

has changed after marriage..

IN BEDROOM

After taking her tablet she checks the prescription for review date with the

doctor n files it back.. He always get irritated with her mr.perfect behavior of

filing things n even scold without knowing its going to save his life.. Like other

routine things making love also happens ,just happens within a time to make

two maggi noodles ..

though neither of them get satisfied they were too egoistical to mention it or

ask more.. Next day

Sun comes out n their routine continues as schedule ..


CHAPTER - II

one day she has to return home earlier... when she comes home n opens

bedroom door , she sees everything normal in the room .. her husband , two

pillows, teddy bear , a water Jug Except an extra 5' 7" feet

creature curling along with her husband in bed .

CHAPTER - III

She made a call to her father ... then she died .

Autopsy Report : suicide , cause of death - opening up veins in bath tub.

CHAPTER - IV

Her father "U killed her, bloody basterd, i dint like u from the start "

He "U r getting too hysterical ,what happened s an unfortunate event n

am feeling sad for u n ur daughter , but dont blame me, i think its bcos of

her condition ..."

Her father "Shut up !! all these days u dint mind about that (BPD) n argued

that she s normal , now to save ur skin u r playing ur cards"

He "Dont use strong words sir .. i find no fault in me, ok let me be open

with u .. i agree i loved her, but i was never satisfied with

her n found soon after marriage that

she can never satisfy me , but i never want to leave her for that reason n so

i found my own way of satisfying myself ..its very normal..think sir.. when u dont

like or bored with homemade food dont u go to hotel or get a parcel of hotel

food to home ..which s precisely what i did :) "

Her Father "I ve never seen such a smooth talking basterd like u in my life ,

i'm
going to court of law "

He "ofcourse sir.."

CHAPTER - V

The court was centered around an as usual unenthusiastic n grumpy judge

with no ears for emotions ..

Her Father - This man pushed her to end her life..this must

not be taken as suicide , its a homicide ..

JUDGE - [ after verifying the neatly aligned her prescription files from first visit

of doctor ] was she a known psychiatric patient ?

Her Father - Its irrelevant to case sir ..this man's adultery caused my

daughter's Life ..

JUDGE - was she under treatment for BPD ?

Her Father - Lord ..but this man pushed her to ..

JUDGE [irritatingly]
- was she a patient with bipolardisorder ,under

treatment n do u agree these prescription in files belongs

to her n do u know her psychiatric illness before ..? say yes or no!!

Her Father - YES !!

JUDGE - Case dismissed .

* THE END *

P.s:

Q1- Do u agree with the judgment?

Q2- Do u think He is innocent ?

Q3- Do u believe her cause of death s due to her BPD alone ?

Friday, February 12, 2010

Lost you forever…

Being with you was like having every single one of my wish come true....
But now I HAVE LOST YOU....!
I know our roads will never cross again & i will never get to see you in my life...
Because......, I HAVE LOST YOU...!

I still miss you every second of my life.
Dream about you all day long....
But i don't LOVE YOU anymore.
Whenever i think about you...,The chill hits every part of my body.
I left you behind in my Past....But "MEMORIES" of you are still haunting me very badly...
I don't even want to try to get you back in my life,
Because i know I HAVE LOST YOU FOREVER...!

I always wanted to hold your hand when i walked on the street.
I always wanted & wished to look into your eyes when i wanted to feel nice.
But today i am all ALONE....and now i don't have any expectations to get you back in my LIFE.
Because I HAVE LOST YOU...!

I still remember the day you came into my LIFE and turned my life into a "PARADISE".
I came to know WHAT LOVE IS? Because of YOU.
The time we shared was a treasure to me.
I always wanted you to feel exactly what i feel for you.
But somewhere i failed to do so.

THE day i met you gave me the reason to smile.
I never felt alone because i know you were always with me...
But you walked away....
Without even knowing HOW WILL I FEEL ???
Without even knowing HOW MUCH I LONG TO BE WITH YOU ???
Without even knowing HOW WILL I LEAD MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU ???
Without even knowing HOW MUCH I NEED YOU ???
Without even knowing "HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU"
Was that LOVE.... I see in your eyes???
Or it was merely a reflection of mine.

When i needed you the most,you left me.
When i needed a shoulder to cry on,you were not there.
When i think, I just think of you.

The Love of yours has touched me "ONE TIME" & will last for "LIFETIME".
I have still kept the memories of are "LOVE" alive.
I desire nothing more than to be with you forever until i die.
But now I HAVE LOST YOU...!!!

I let you go..Because I have realized that......,
YOU WERE NEVER MINE & YOU WILL NEVER BE.

YOU know WHY??????
Because.......
SOMEONE IN SOME CORNER OF THIS WORLD MIGHT BE WAITING FOR 

**ME & MY LOVE**

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

2009- the year which passed with everything

I was too lazy to start writing what happened in my 2009 but I had a few of my friends who wanted me to write about it. Thank you guys for making me write “SOMETHING” again. Nowadays, I’m too lazy. Life is too boring. All I do is sit around playing Farmville, Cafe world, Happy aquarium and Pet ville. It took up all my precious blogging time. After some nice advice from a few friends( including bloggers) I’ve given up Farmville.. Will do the others to while I get going with other much more important stuff. Enough of my ranting about the present.. lets talk about 2009, the year which had everything.

The beginning was as cool as it will get with all my friends getting close and personal. We had the most funniest and most depressing moments this year. I understood the true meaning of betrayal by a best friend. I cried my wits out but it has to go on and I had others things to worry about. 2009, was tough. Too many friendships were lost and a very few I gained. My sister had also had a tough time getting VISA for her higher education in UK. Learnt a lot people tried to stop that happening. So many huddles and cries, finally, she landed there with no trouble. At least, that's what we thought but she also had some trouble. Thank God, my brother also lives in Leeds to take care of her. People are sometimes so rude and selfish. They do anything to have their life more pleasurable.

A lot of happy things also happened like the time I wrote my first OPEN BOOK exams which was awesome but tiring since we had to write from our laptop and stuff. The final part of the year was okay, I just got lucky to have such wonderful family who stand by my side at any cost. The part where I thought were I would lose my best friends was finally gotten over . Alas, true friendship triumphs… Last but not the least, I got a whole lot of friends and well wishers through blogging.. I’m grateful to all of them for their support and care. Blogging has become a very integral part of my life and I love doing it. Learning new things everyday. Accepting failure as well as success. I feel that every year has its own way of teaching us the most important things in life. Not to forget that we age every year. It is a pleasant living the life as it comes.. That me.. Take life as it comes…. Still going strong in 2010

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Money

 

Money? What is it, a simple piece of paper that determines who you are in life. I guess we are all fooled because it only brings stress and misery to our life. Many assume that money can buy happiness but have you really thought about it. Can money really put a price on our smiles and laughs? If you answer yes than ,you tell me the price of your smile? I will tell you mine, mine, is priceless because money is nothing to me. Give me tons and tons of money also I wouldn’t be as happy as I am now. Some may criticize by saying that, my parents provide me with whatever I have. I strongly believe that my parents do it for the love of it. Yes, The love of having me as their child. I never pampered. Never. I have my priorities too!!


Money has become something that is needed everywhere. It steals your ability to think and to make sense of things. It helps you forget about your troubles but soon brings many more. People have gone to many extremes to get it and many have not been successful. So tell me what have you done? Have you stolen money from your mothers purse? Your friends? Have you done things that you regretted later in life? I hope that you haven't but personally I haven't but trust me I have thought about it. Its very tempting and its very difficult to prevent yourself from doing it. Our society shows us that money is everything and without it you are a nobody. It brings pressure to our life and causes many difficulties. What you have is no longer good enough, you need more much much more. Your morals are tested and you fail at it. Tell me can we really blame ourselves?


It has taken me a long time or a short time (depends on how you look at it) to accept that I'm never going to be wealthy or rich in life. Its not because I don't think that I'm going to be successful but its because I now know that its either money or my happiness. And can you guess what I picked? I want to be able to see life and not regret who I am. To look at my life and see that its not about what I'm wearing or what kind of car I'm driving , its about who i am on the inside and the type of person i am. Its about people being able to trust me and about the person I present myself as. I think that everybody should look past money and see the person as who they are because in the end we are all going to end up in the same place, a grave. WE LIVE IN A MATERIALISTIC WORLD…


Its okay, I know money withdrawal is worse than being sober. It takes time and determination. You have to be able to want your freedom. You have to be able to accept the way life is. I know money is necessary to survive but if you have too much of it, trust me, you wont survive with it. The richest guy Bill Gates has a private pool around his bedroom with a couple of dolphins in it. The doctor has asked to do this because he felt that he wasn’t too happy in life. You think that he would be happy only if he watched the dolphins swim or play with him. Keep doing what your doing earn your living but don't get side tracked. Remember who you are making that money for whether its your wife , husband, kids, friends or for yourself , remember that it cant put a price on your happiness.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

It was gone.....

Your love haunts me like a ghost
I love you yet i want to hate you the most
I thought true love had finally come
but before I knew it, it was gone!!!

Sunday, April 5, 2009

7 things to make sure you are truly happy.

Are we happy with what we are today? Are you happy with everyone around you? Are you having fun? Are you giving your best at any work you do with happiness? If your answer is no, then I ask " why not?'

So then where did happiness go? It hasn't gone anywhere just inside you. Its an internal feeling which can be felt only internally and impossible to obtain from outside things. Sure, they may make you happy initially, but the emptiness will not go away.

Then you ask," so, how can I be happy then?"

Follow these rules:

1.
Accept That You Deserve To Be Happy.
If you cannot accept the fact that you are meant to be happy, then you can never be happy. So tell yourself that you are deserve to be happy all the time and you are definitely worthy of it every bit.

2.Accept Who You Are.

Being happy means is accepting who you are: Good, bad, ugly or whatever. Its knowing that you are doing the best you can do, and being content about it. I'm not saying that you would have to ignore what you'd like to improve in you life but if you only see what's missing, you lose out loving what's great about you.

3.Be Comfortable Wherever You are.

Being happy today means being comfortable where you are in the present. Live this moment. You would never know what you would be the next moment. Try to live every bit of the day.

4. Appreciate Your Life.
Be grateful for your life. Whether its your health, job,place, love, food, family or everything around. Wouldn't you live your life differently, if you had known that you were going to live only for 3 months from now? Guess What? You are going to die one day, and what does it matter whether its 3 months or tomorrow.

5. Ask For Help.
Being happy doesn't mean you should keep your problems to your self. It also means that you ask for support, love, guidance you get through with everything with ease.Most of us don't ask for help because we don't want to burden the people around us. But, if someone asked you for assistance, wouldn't you lend a helping hand? Then why wouldn't you let others do the same for you?

6. Do Something Nice For Someone Else.

This could be as simple as holding the door for the person behind you, or as big as volunteering your time to your favorite charity. Your problems become smaller when you are not always thinking about them. When you take the focus off yourself, it is easier to see how great your life really is.

7. Do Something That Will Move You Forward.

Being happy is taking steps that will move you forward. Movement keeps you from feeling like a victim. When you're unhappy, formulating a plan puts you in a different place and helps change your perspective. It also put the power back in your hands!

So, what is it going to take to have you be happy today? How much more of your life do you want to live waiting for "someday" to bring you the happiness you crave? It's up to you to create your own happiness. It's up to you to create a life filled with joy rather than sorrow. Why not choose a life filled with happiness today?

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