Waiting for a Prince

Sitting all alone in her room,
Waiting for her prince to come through.
Left only with her agony,
She wonders to herself why me.
She's read all the stories of true love,
And looks to the stars up above.
Hoping to see a sign,
Wondering when it will be her time.
Will her prince ever come,
Or will she be left alone in the sun.
Maybe it's not made for her,
She's always left unsure.
She thinks about the day her prince will arrive,
Without his love she feels deprived.
Love comes to all but she,
Soon she wonders if it will ever be.
A prince is all she needs to be fine,
Instead of just trying to survive.
Happily ever after is what she needs,
With it she will be freed.

Loniless is killing me ... :(

"To love and to be loved the basic necessity of every living creature... Why would I be different in it??"

Letting me go

Dad and Mama, I love you, I really do,
I can’t think of my world without you!

No more kiss good-night,
No more dad to hold me tight.
No more hugs to calm my fears,
No more hands to wipe my tears!
No more tucking in at night.

But I know I will see you once again
And then you will hold me tight,
When we are together again.

l want to be selfish and share
But what I want just isn’t fair.
Dad, I am living of dull life
Without you here by my side,

Mama, as long as I live
Not a moment will go by
When I don’t wish you were with me.

Daddy I love you, I really do,
Mama I love you, I really do,
Daddy I know you have to leave me
But I told you I don't want to go,
Why did you let me be alone,
Let me go.

I show no fear in my eyes and face
But I am scared without you besides me,

I don't want to cry when I'm talking to you,
But I cry when I'm alone.
Dad and Mama,

Just remember I will always love you.

Two Things....

Very important two things I miss now a days...

1. My sister who left for higher education and I'm unable to get out of the thoughts how she cries every time we talk to her... She is so innocent, all these days wrapped in the arms of my father and suddenly let out free to live on her own. It will take her quiet some time to settle down.

2. My blog- I hardly blog these.. I read all the other posts of my fellow blogger but just unable to write what I have in my mind. I have so many things to talk about yet I am unable to get words. Maybe its because of reason 1 or may be??  Then I thought, was I being lazy?? I am never lazy when it comes to blogging.. This is something that I do whole heartedly and love every second of it.. So it must be reason 1. So gimme sometime.. I'm yet to figure out to put words on the posts. I'll make sure to come out with a bang

I had a dream about you!!

I had a dream about you.
I dreamed that you were talking to me
and that we were laughing together.
I dreamed that you told me secrets.
Secrets that you could only tell me.

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Last night I woke up crying.
Crying because I know that's what we used to have.
It's what I wish we still were.
And what I know we'll never be again.

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This morning, I realized something.
I realized it was just a dream.
I realized that it's been a few months now,
and I'm finally getting over you.
I'm finally getting over crying so much.

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I hope that your life turns out exactly how you want it to be.
I hope you're happy.
Happy without me.
But most of all,
I hope you'll miss me one day as much as I missed you.

Birthday Bashes... During exams Times AAARGH!!!

My Sweet and naughtiest cousin POOJA celebrated her 5th birthday yesterday(29/07/09) which, of course I missed due to exams. I miss that sweetie pie. I called up in the morning before going to exams and wished her. Then made sure Murugesh wished her after exams which she asked for. Don't ask me who Murugesh is: He is my classmate from IIPM who is Pooja's pet.

Anyways.. So today, I have two of my classmates celebrating birthdays. That would be Nishanth and Pradap. Both of them are personally good friends of mine, but since its exams we are unable to celebrate their birthday.

Then last but never the least, Saddam,(now only close friend who cares a lot about me), is celebrating his birthday on the Sunday(2.8.09). I want to celebrate his birthday too.. Since its the final year for all of us and we would be leaving in another 6 months of college, I feel so sad about us not being together even on our special days.. Anyways I hope that atleast we could re-unite in celebrating each other's birthday..

PS: My dad turns 50 this month... Half Century... Yippee....And I wish all these people Happy Birthday and Wishing you happiness all the way.. Have fun. Take care..

Empty Space

Living in an empty place
A place of boundless space
With an invisible corners of chaos
It's choking you to death

Living in an empty place
A place of a deafening silence
With the echos of your soul screaming
Impairing your hearing system

Making you feel the pain
Slowly it's tearing your life apart
And giving you unbearable numbness
Like a knife cutting out your heart

Living in an empty place
Why can't find a new way to start?
Too much space where to build a dream
Without someone you found nowhere to fit in

I miss you, Praveen...

The one my heart and soul confided in
The one I felt the safest with
The one who knew just what to say
To make me laugh again

And let the light back in
I miss my friend

I miss the colors that you brought into my life
Your golden smile, those eyes
I miss your gentle voice
In lonely times like now
Sayin' it'll be alright
I miss my friend

I miss those times
I miss those days
I even miss our silly fights
The makin up, the talks
And those canteen walks
I miss my friend

I miss my friend
I miss my friend

Mood of the day !!

I miss you friend!!!

I  would like to share the on-going process of fight between two so- called best friends( atleast that's what I thought). I've not left with any close friends at this moment( Ram and Prasanna, excuse me!! You pple are still good friends to me but I just had so much of affection on him). I even consider him (Mr.P) as my closest friend.

Since college started, I've met up with a lota people but only a few have become that close to me by heart. Literally, to my heart. I just cannot bare the fact that he is ignoring me for the fact that i was just listening to a conversation which was happening between two people. I was already betrayed by my so- called best friends about a few months ago. I think I just dont have the fate to be with good people. One minute, there, I felt I was missing the best phase of my life. I'm seriously pissed off. I'm not myself. I don't smile, eat properly. Cannot even look at HIM these days. I miss you, P. Please talk to me. I feel that someone else have replaced me in the place with was so special for me in your heart. I don't want to come to college anymore or even look @ other people. All I want is to be with you. I don't want this issue to spilt us. I've already missed so many good people and dont want it to happen with you too. I begged you to talk back to me. Atleast tell me what do you expect of me..I've asked any friend this question. All I want to tell you is that everybody cannot be you.Please try to keep your differences away when it comes to friends.. Life can never be the same if we guys are not back together..

Please come back n taalk to me.. miss you very badly..understand me pa..

Heyyyyyyyyy. Another HP movie??

I am a huge fan of Harry Potter.. I love the way she writes. She was one of those people who inspired me to write more and more. This book also brought my friend( bharani) and me together. This book gave us so much to talk about that we never got tired of it. We cried together for Dumbledore dying( which happens in the 6th book), then we had cried for Black's death and we talked about the way the ending in the seventh could have been modified or changed. We discussed about the creativity of this amazing author J.K Rowling and the potential she had. Ron being the funniest character was her favourite and mine too.. We loved Dumbledore and also wanted to study in a school like Hogwarts. It was that fantasy world which we would have loved to travel to.. She wanted to be a witch and we always wanted to believe that there was this world of witchcrafts and wizardry existing now. We thought that someday, we could meet Hagrid.. So many dreams and wishes we shared together.. We loved the little romance between Hermione and Ron and we hated Harry's relationship with Cho Chang. I was so relieved when we knew that Harry fell in love with Ginny @ last.I could still remember that when Harry had his first kiss with Cho, Ron asked him how he felt and then Harry would reply saying that it was wet. Bharani, like my blogger friend, RAJI was a big dreamer. Those days, our home phone bills would hit the sky which, of course, was also followed by scolding from both the parents.

" Your mother died to save you. If there is one thing Voldermort cannot understand, it is love"


One of the famous quotes given by Albus Dumbledore gave the both of so much of importance that we decided to have that quote in our bedroom doors forever. Something just cannot be substituted. So are my memories about Harry Potter and my friend Bharani. "Bharani, If you are out there, reading my blog.. Please get back with me. I want to see the forth coming Harry potter and the Half blood Prince with you. You are the best person who I would never like to miss in my life.. Love you Lots.. Missing you truly..
your friend forever
RAJI"

PS: Go watch the movie Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince on 17th July with your friends..

It was gone.....

Your love haunts me like a ghost
I love you yet i want to hate you the most
I thought true love had finally come
but before I knew it, it was gone!!!

Missing Feeling!!!

I hope all the girls remember going on the bike behind your dad who was then very much younger. I used to hug my dad so tight because I was too scared whether I would fall off. Years before that, you would remember sitting front on the petrol tank.. I was so proud of my dad. He was my Hero. Still is. He used to ride this Royal Enfield Bullet which is very huge and is very difficult to ride. Once I remember a friend of mine who was very scared of my dad because of the way he looks at him and also by the way he rides the bike. Its just amazing how much I miss hugging my dad from behind. But now that I have grown up and my dad has had severe pain on the backbone due to riding that sort of heavy vehicle, he now rides my scooty pep. Still doesn't allow me to go on the main roads, though.

Coming back to the subject. I seriously miss those innocent days when I used to ask endless number of questions to him not allowing him to concentrate on the ride, but even with all those disturbances my dad was always cautious about his bike and with me on it. Today, I am very carefree and love those long rides with friends with the highest speed possible on that bike, I still dont get that feeling which I had experienced with my dad. He is the best and my hero. I wish I could go back to those glorious days of innocence because I never had to bother about anything when I had my dad to take care of me at all time.