Déjà vu

Today I had this small moment where I felt that little moments have special meaning. I was walking towards the shop nearby my place when I saw a small girl not more than 6 or 7 was walking along with her little sister. I guess they were just shopping like me. This reminded me of how I used to walk with my youngest sister everyday from school.

  Once, in school, I had project day wherein all our projects are displayed while we explain our own. My parents were not able to attend that particular day but we were supposed to get my driver to pick us up from school. We lived only a few streets away from school yet we had a main road to cross so they wouldn’t let us go alone. I was dressed up as “ Sarojini Naidu. I was in the 5th standard. :))) I was wearing a saree. So the day got over as fast as it could. Everyone loved my recitation about Sarojini Naidu. So I went down to get my youngest sister from her class Pre-KG. I was waiting along with her for our car. What I learnt from the watchman was that the driver had gone with my other sister and had asked me to wait there with Gayu, my youngest sister. It was almost for 20 minutes, I waited along with her. My sister was almost in tears because she was hungry. I gave her some water yet she was looking so troubled. So I took my chances, took the saree off me because I couldn’t walk with it. Of course I had my shorts and t-shirt under it. So I took hold of my sister’s hand and crossed the road on my own gripping that little thing’s hand to hard and walked home.

When I got home, my sister was too scared that she hugged me till mom came. Which was so sweet and I felt proud being the eldest. Obviously, the driver didn’t see us walking so he had waited and searched for us. Came back home to find us in our neighbour’s house. I was in trouble to take such a risk but I had to because my sister was almost crying. And it was worth it because of the hug from her which was priceless. :)) Now, time has changed. She has grown bigger and taller than me. She has her own teen issues to deal with and all the sisterly fights we have. She has fought with me and we aren’t talking to each other for about 5 months now yet I see her everyday. I miss that hugging sister who was looking at me as if that her life depended on me. After all, I am her BIG sister. I miss her.. My mom would always keep reminding about this incident whenever she had a chance. One moment which is so close to my heart. I wouldn’t let go off her hand ever..:)) Some things can never be replaced.

PS: That’s her.. GAYATHREE… My youngest sister.

Realising the value of friendship

During these days, I get into a lot of trouble in college. Yes. The thing is I do things impulsively which results in something else which was not meant to happen. I'm getting back to be very naughty. I usually tease and get teased... A Lot. Basically, I do it for the fun of it but I make sure that nothing serious happens or I don't go beyond my limits. I know the feeling of other people and try my level best not to hurt them. Not all of us are alike. We are a unique piece of art created by god for some purpose in life. So many difference, yet, we are all here for doing something. Having a meaning for every minute of our life.

Same goes to friends and our other relationship with people. Life isn't always having the good people. Life is all about being what we are and how we manage ourselves. Like I always say, " WE LEARN FROM MISTAKES." I'm not saying that I'm a good person neither a bad person. Qualities I think good, may not be the same for others. These are not the common qualities. I'm talking about qualities like friendship, understanding, etc. What am I trying to convey through all these things?? ( i really dono at the moment.. but lets hope I get what I'm trying to say)

Today, like I was saying, I was teasing an OLD friend of mine which was not a good thing. She got angry and pissed off. I try to handle things on my own without other people involving themselves into the case unlike she did the opposite. She involved her so-called BF into the issue and this became a big issue as the guy came and talked to me about it. He is also a very good friends of mine and I said I did it for the sake of fun . It hurt her that badly, I'm ready to apologize and accept my mistake, but she cried out loud and made a big scene. I got very angry(I hate myself angry) and teased her more which was not suppose to happen but I did it. So I left college abruptly without any solution. So I was not quite happy with what I did and called up the BF to apologize about and I realize that something he told me over the conversation was very important for life as friendship. He said that even if a friend was committing a crime against you, you would have to forgive him/her and get back to what you were before the "so- called- fight." Of course, I dint accept it in the first place. I argued with him about it for quite sometimes and things he told really made sense. There are only a few minor differences between Love and Friendship and fights like these just should not ruin the friendship because like he said, we never expect anything from a friendship just unlimited love and joy. Thats why we have friends, isn't it?? Give me your comments and suggestions on this one.