Déjà vu

Today I had this small moment where I felt that little moments have special meaning. I was walking towards the shop nearby my place when I saw a small girl not more than 6 or 7 was walking along with her little sister. I guess they were just shopping like me. This reminded me of how I used to walk with my youngest sister everyday from school.

  Once, in school, I had project day wherein all our projects are displayed while we explain our own. My parents were not able to attend that particular day but we were supposed to get my driver to pick us up from school. We lived only a few streets away from school yet we had a main road to cross so they wouldn’t let us go alone. I was dressed up as “ Sarojini Naidu. I was in the 5th standard. :))) I was wearing a saree. So the day got over as fast as it could. Everyone loved my recitation about Sarojini Naidu. So I went down to get my youngest sister from her class Pre-KG. I was waiting along with her for our car. What I learnt from the watchman was that the driver had gone with my other sister and had asked me to wait there with Gayu, my youngest sister. It was almost for 20 minutes, I waited along with her. My sister was almost in tears because she was hungry. I gave her some water yet she was looking so troubled. So I took my chances, took the saree off me because I couldn’t walk with it. Of course I had my shorts and t-shirt under it. So I took hold of my sister’s hand and crossed the road on my own gripping that little thing’s hand to hard and walked home.

When I got home, my sister was too scared that she hugged me till mom came. Which was so sweet and I felt proud being the eldest. Obviously, the driver didn’t see us walking so he had waited and searched for us. Came back home to find us in our neighbour’s house. I was in trouble to take such a risk but I had to because my sister was almost crying. And it was worth it because of the hug from her which was priceless. :)) Now, time has changed. She has grown bigger and taller than me. She has her own teen issues to deal with and all the sisterly fights we have. She has fought with me and we aren’t talking to each other for about 5 months now yet I see her everyday. I miss that hugging sister who was looking at me as if that her life depended on me. After all, I am her BIG sister. I miss her.. My mom would always keep reminding about this incident whenever she had a chance. One moment which is so close to my heart. I wouldn’t let go off her hand ever..:)) Some things can never be replaced.

PS: That’s her.. GAYATHREE… My youngest sister.

Money

 

Money? What is it, a simple piece of paper that determines who you are in life. I guess we are all fooled because it only brings stress and misery to our life. Many assume that money can buy happiness but have you really thought about it. Can money really put a price on our smiles and laughs? If you answer yes than ,you tell me the price of your smile? I will tell you mine, mine, is priceless because money is nothing to me. Give me tons and tons of money also I wouldn’t be as happy as I am now. Some may criticize by saying that, my parents provide me with whatever I have. I strongly believe that my parents do it for the love of it. Yes, The love of having me as their child. I never pampered. Never. I have my priorities too!!

Money has become something that is needed everywhere. It steals your ability to think and to make sense of things. It helps you forget about your troubles but soon brings many more. People have gone to many extremes to get it and many have not been successful. So tell me what have you done? Have you stolen money from your mothers purse? Your friends? Have you done things that you regretted later in life? I hope that you haven't but personally I haven't but trust me I have thought about it. Its very tempting and its very difficult to prevent yourself from doing it. Our society shows us that money is everything and without it you are a nobody. It brings pressure to our life and causes many difficulties. What you have is no longer good enough, you need more much much more. Your morals are tested and you fail at it. Tell me can we really blame ourselves?

It has taken me a long time or a short time (depends on how you look at it) to accept that I'm never going to be wealthy or rich in life. Its not because I don't think that I'm going to be successful but its because I now know that its either money or my happiness. And can you guess what I picked? I want to be able to see life and not regret who I am. To look at my life and see that its not about what I'm wearing or what kind of car I'm driving , its about who i am on the inside and the type of person i am. Its about people being able to trust me and about the person I present myself as. I think that everybody should look past money and see the person as who they are because in the end we are all going to end up in the same place, a grave. WE LIVE IN A MATERIALISTIC WORLD…

Its okay, I know money withdrawal is worse than being sober. It takes time and determination. You have to be able to want your freedom. You have to be able to accept the way life is. I know money is necessary to survive but if you have too much of it, trust me, you wont survive with it. The richest guy Bill Gates has a private pool around his bedroom with a couple of dolphins in it. The doctor has asked to do this because he felt that he wasn’t too happy in life. You think that he would be happy only if he watched the dolphins swim or play with him. Keep doing what your doing earn your living but don't get side tracked. Remember who you are making that money for whether its your wife , husband, kids, friends or for yourself , remember that it cant put a price on your happiness.

Dad, you've been there!!

Dad, you've been there
When I cried half the night.
You've been there for me
when others didn't treat me right.

Dad, you've been there
and made me laugh.
You taught me to always
choose the right path.

Dad, you've been there
and believed I could do anything,
taught me how to never give up
and told me never say never.

Dad, you've been there for me
through school and all.
You picked me up
when I was about to fall

My love for you will never end
I'm happy to say, "You're like a friend."

I love you, daddy
no matter what I say.
I'll always love you
each and every day.

A special note to my dad for always being there for me and the best friend, I've ever had. I know I keep writing about my dad but that much he means to me and no one else does. I love him more than I love myself. Its just a special thanks to that special dad in my life!!!

Happy birthday Chottu!!!!

Today, its my chottu's birthday!!! He is a real cutie pie and also accepted me as one of his girlfriends. My boyfriend is just 3 years old and I love him very much. This post is dedicated to my darling neighbour chottu who is crazy about me... Love you chottu. Eventhough he cannot read, he knows that I do. Tomorrow morning,he'l be the first one to wake me up and say, " hey raji, today is my happy birthday. Where is my chocolate and gift??? Raji I want Dora and bujji." LOL I Love him...He is afterall my boyfriend...

Thank you, Sisters

I consider myself very lucky
To have sisters;
Sisters, who loves me for what I am,
Not for what others see me as,
Or for what I ought to be.
They loves me truly the way I am.
We've fought and patched up.
We've shared secrets of happiness and sadness
We've laughed until we cried,
And then we dried each other's tears.
I look up to them (because they are taller than me)
We don't laugh at each other's mistakes,
But help each other to correct them.
They prevent me from losing my temper,
I prevent them from losing their sense of judgments.
I know none of us are perfect,
But together, we help each other to become so.
Thank you, sisters
For always being there for me.

Ishu and Gayu, I love you both very much.

And will never leave you both again.