Loniless is killing me ... :(

"To love and to be loved the basic necessity of every living creature... Why would I be different in it??"

Déjà vu

Today I had this small moment where I felt that little moments have special meaning. I was walking towards the shop nearby my place when I saw a small girl not more than 6 or 7 was walking along with her little sister. I guess they were just shopping like me. This reminded me of how I used to walk with my youngest sister everyday from school.

  Once, in school, I had project day wherein all our projects are displayed while we explain our own. My parents were not able to attend that particular day but we were supposed to get my driver to pick us up from school. We lived only a few streets away from school yet we had a main road to cross so they wouldn’t let us go alone. I was dressed up as “ Sarojini Naidu. I was in the 5th standard. :))) I was wearing a saree. So the day got over as fast as it could. Everyone loved my recitation about Sarojini Naidu. So I went down to get my youngest sister from her class Pre-KG. I was waiting along with her for our car. What I learnt from the watchman was that the driver had gone with my other sister and had asked me to wait there with Gayu, my youngest sister. It was almost for 20 minutes, I waited along with her. My sister was almost in tears because she was hungry. I gave her some water yet she was looking so troubled. So I took my chances, took the saree off me because I couldn’t walk with it. Of course I had my shorts and t-shirt under it. So I took hold of my sister’s hand and crossed the road on my own gripping that little thing’s hand to hard and walked home.

When I got home, my sister was too scared that she hugged me till mom came. Which was so sweet and I felt proud being the eldest. Obviously, the driver didn’t see us walking so he had waited and searched for us. Came back home to find us in our neighbour’s house. I was in trouble to take such a risk but I had to because my sister was almost crying. And it was worth it because of the hug from her which was priceless. :)) Now, time has changed. She has grown bigger and taller than me. She has her own teen issues to deal with and all the sisterly fights we have. She has fought with me and we aren’t talking to each other for about 5 months now yet I see her everyday. I miss that hugging sister who was looking at me as if that her life depended on me. After all, I am her BIG sister. I miss her.. My mom would always keep reminding about this incident whenever she had a chance. One moment which is so close to my heart. I wouldn’t let go off her hand ever..:)) Some things can never be replaced.

PS: That’s her.. GAYATHREE… My youngest sister.

Two Things....

Very important two things I miss now a days...

1. My sister who left for higher education and I'm unable to get out of the thoughts how she cries every time we talk to her... She is so innocent, all these days wrapped in the arms of my father and suddenly let out free to live on her own. It will take her quiet some time to settle down.

2. My blog- I hardly blog these.. I read all the other posts of my fellow blogger but just unable to write what I have in my mind. I have so many things to talk about yet I am unable to get words. Maybe its because of reason 1 or may be??  Then I thought, was I being lazy?? I am never lazy when it comes to blogging.. This is something that I do whole heartedly and love every second of it.. So it must be reason 1. So gimme sometime.. I'm yet to figure out to put words on the posts. I'll make sure to come out with a bang

Updates! Updates!! Updates!!!

1.Watched the latest Kamal Hassan's Movie UPO (unnai pol oru van). The movie about a not-so-common man. I don't think terrorism can be eradicated by terrorism. I mean I cannot even imagine my dad( definitely a common man) thinking about violence. May be big shots common men like Kamal can...:)

2. Life can be tooooo boring if you have 72 subjects to study. So am I bored? Yes. I'm totally exhausted. I need a little break to come back with a big bang for the upcoming placements.

3. Friends?? Okay that's definitely a big question mark(?). Really cannot realize whether I will ever get a good friend. I miss all my friends- good or bad. Just unbelievable for a people- person like me.

4. Blog. Due to the facts mentioned in the above list, my imagination is stuck. I really cannot get anything in my mind except sadness which is really too boring for me. I need positive energy to get on with anything.

5. Presentation- I have this BIG presentation coming up for my Mergers and Acquisition class which is going to be huge for me because I've worked my heart and soul into it!! I just wanna give my best. I realized that these presentations give me the best of confidence that I've had in my life till now.

6. GOTA- Global Opportunities to Threat and Analysis. It is a program to give us global exposure on the global companies and their strategies. Basically and frankly, its foreign trip which is paid for along with the tution fees that we pay for this MBA program. They are yet to take us to this trip which has taken the longest time ever and we had a long talk(fight) with our Dean about it.

7.Mission Separation- My class has got a new pair of love birds who are totally not so perfect for each other. Since I belong to the group which is trying to separate them even though I don't give a damn about them, I'm getting squeezed between them. (God, please help me, I hate this business).

8. College- Being in the final trimester in which we will be having classes, I am going to miss each one of them. So planning to do something special for all my classmates. Hoping that it will come out well.

9. Anger- I hardly get angry but off late, I cannot control them. Even though, it wasn't my fault on this particular issue, I shouldn't have scolded my friend so badly. Sorry, Vijay. Peace !!

10. I miss my sister since she has left for UK for her higher Education. I wish she is okay there.

Thank you, Sisters

I consider myself very lucky
To have sisters;
Sisters, who loves me for what I am,
Not for what others see me as,
Or for what I ought to be.
They loves me truly the way I am.
We've fought and patched up.
We've shared secrets of happiness and sadness
We've laughed until we cried,
And then we dried each other's tears.
I look up to them (because they are taller than me)
We don't laugh at each other's mistakes,
But help each other to correct them.
They prevent me from losing my temper,
I prevent them from losing their sense of judgments.
I know none of us are perfect,
But together, we help each other to become so.
Thank you, sisters
For always being there for me.

Ishu and Gayu, I love you both very much.

And will never leave you both again.

Sextuplets??? What would my mom feel about that?

Today, we were watching this show called Jon & Kate Plus 8. It makes me wonder how the mother can manage twins and sextuplets all at the same time.

We( my sisters and me), made sure that my mom watched that show. It was hilarious how the mother had to keep up with them every single day. My mom, after watching the show, talked about how my dad use to rock the cradle till I sleep. Even with the slightest noise, I would wake up and cry. It was my dad's turn to make me sleep in the night because my mom had enough trouble with me the whole day. Actually, I also heard that he loved doing it. Since I was the first born, I was pampered too much those days. My 1st sister (Aishu) was always the best according to my mom because she never troubled my mom in eating or sleeping. Whenever it was time to eat, she would do it herself. No wonder she is all so plumply and cuddly. Gayu, the youngest of the lot was also a trouble maker just like me. But I was the worst. Am still the worst. Well it all happens :)

We also talked about my cousin sister Pooja who is the worst of all of us in the family. Her mom even cries sometimes due to the pressure. So the next time, we watch that show on TV, we are going to ask her to watch it too..
Its just amazing how Kate tries to be bias to all the kids.
They first had Twins:
Mady and Cara
And four years later, they had Sextuplets
Alexis, Leah, Aaden, Hannah,Collin and Joel.( 3 girls and 3 boys). They all look very cute.
WOW they must have whole lot of fun and hard work taking care of them.
I wonder what my mom would do with Sextuplets, if she had them.
She cannot manage with just the three of us.