MISTAKES.....

I believed
When I shouldn't have
I loved you
When I never could have

You learned your lesson,
I learned mine
You should never love me
And I should never trust you

We both messed up
We both made mistakes
You made yours, I made mine
Now I wish I could rewind time

Take me back to before all this
Take me away from all the pain
Pull me away from our last kiss
And take me away from your sweet smile

Take away all your lies
I always thought you meant everything
Take away all these cries
And take away our final goodbyes

Yes, it could have been
Yes, we could have lasted
Forever was a possibly
But we both know how this turned out

You were my hero
I was your nothing
You gave me sorrow
That will forever last

Go move on
Go be happy
Leave me torn
Leave me sore

Flee from me
And I'll flee from you
Don't ever regret
What you're about to do

I still love you
With all my heart
Every day and every night,
All of this, right from the start.

Broken heart

It's been a long time now
Since you broke my heart
Thought i could easily get over it
Knowing what I did was just right
But here i am
Still holding back the
Feelings i still have
I can't let you go no matter what...
I still can't mend my broken heart!

Take some time

People come and go
Things and feelings change
but history repeats itself in many ways
the circle keeps getting tighter
until you can’t breathe
some people get closer
while others leave
but you know
he’ll always be in your heart
it’ll just take some time
to realize
it wasn’t him
and right now
your whole body aches
and you cringe
seeing her with him
wishing it still was you
it’ll just take some time
to realize
he never really loved you
you feel empty
and hollow
something’s missing
a piece torn out of your heart
you know your a fool
for falling in love
you knew it would end bad
but you took that chance
for a pair of beautiful eyes
that promised you the night skies
now you’re standing here alone
staring up at the stars
they aren’t yours like he said they would
but you can see his name and hers
and it hurts
it’ll just take some time
to realize
it wasn’t him
and right now
your whole body aches
and you cringe
seeing her with him
wishing it still was you
it’ll just take some time
to realize
it wasn’t him
and right now
your whole body aches
and you cringe
seeing her with him
wishing it still was you
it’ll just take some time
to realize
he never really loved you

and when the hurt finally stops
and you’re able to move on
you’ll look back now and then
and realize
everything happens for a reason
and everything takes time
it’ll just take some time
to realize
it wasn’t him
and right now
your whole body aches
and you cringe
seeing her with him
wishing it still was you
it’ll just take some time
to realize
he never really loved you

It Hurts...

It's hurt, when people say you are not who you are, It's hurt, when people are watching every step you made, It's hurt, when people are judging us too much, it's hurt, when everything around you is not right, it's hurt, when you didn't know who you are anymore, it's hurt, when people thought you can't get everything right, it's hurt. when you hated someone, it's hurt, when people are playing our heart too much. It's hurt, when you don't want it to happens, It's hurt, when all you want is peace and joy. but you can't get it...

Even though you have hurt me without knowing, I still love you!!!

I wish you knew how I felt
I wish you looked at me straight in the eye
And know how I love you
I never believed in love at first sight until I saw you
I wish you were here beside me I wish I was in your arms
crying while it rains so you won’t notice that my love for you is hurting me
when you smile my whole body throws fireworks
and when I realize I'm imagining it all stops
but when you actually walk by me I just don’t know what to do

And when you looked at me and I stopped breathing
I realized it wasn’t me you're looking at
you can break my heart
You can hurt me
but in the end I'll still love you
And to prove it I'm writing you this poem aren’t i??

I still love you and forever will......

Mind your own business..I don't care a damn about you!!!

In life when people are disappointed and depressed, some people just want to make things worse. I have my life to live and I have lot of people to care and walk with me. I just want the others who think I'm nothing... Thank you people... You make me want to live more and laugh more... Your criticism make me want to prove to you that I'm happy and always will be.. I don't give a damn about money. Here I would like to quote a famous saying by Mr. Vadivelu. "Hey money come today and go tomorrow ya" LOL.. Jokes apart, if you have money, have it. I don't think money can buy you everthing in life except monetary benefit and physical things. It can never buy you love, care and happiness.. I' m happy with what I have and what I am.. I live my life the way I want to live... So Mind your own business and get the hell of out of my life and dont ruin my life with what I'm left with....

I'm Not What You See

People look at me and see a perfect little girl
But what they don't know is deep down inside
I'm troubled in this world
From my fears I hide
And I try to act strong
Like nothing bothers me
I act like nothing's wrong
So you can't see
That I'm not perfect
I struggle all the time
But I have come to the point
I'm tired of acting like I'm fine
I'm tired of acting fake
And I need to be more aware that this is not a dream
That I am awake
So to anyone I ever hurt for not being me
I'm sorry you finally know this
And I'm sorry I'm not everything you want me to be
But that is something I wish to be
Perfect

Missing Feeling!!!

I hope all the girls remember going on the bike behind your dad who was then very much younger. I used to hug my dad so tight because I was too scared whether I would fall off. Years before that, you would remember sitting front on the petrol tank.. I was so proud of my dad. He was my Hero. Still is. He used to ride this Royal Enfield Bullet which is very huge and is very difficult to ride. Once I remember a friend of mine who was very scared of my dad because of the way he looks at him and also by the way he rides the bike. Its just amazing how much I miss hugging my dad from behind. But now that I have grown up and my dad has had severe pain on the backbone due to riding that sort of heavy vehicle, he now rides my scooty pep. Still doesn't allow me to go on the main roads, though.

Coming back to the subject. I seriously miss those innocent days when I used to ask endless number of questions to him not allowing him to concentrate on the ride, but even with all those disturbances my dad was always cautious about his bike and with me on it. Today, I am very carefree and love those long rides with friends with the highest speed possible on that bike, I still dont get that feeling which I had experienced with my dad. He is the best and my hero. I wish I could go back to those glorious days of innocence because I never had to bother about anything when I had my dad to take care of me at all time.

Memories are left

I want to be with you,
But you’re millions of miles away.
I wish you would call just to ask about my day.
It would make things so much better if I could hear your voice,
I guess I can’t complain too much, it just wasn’t your choice.
You were always there for me through both the good times and the bad.
You were always there to laugh with me, or to help me when I’m sad.
It’s not that I pity you,
But I’ll admit your life’s been tough,
I just wish that physically,
I could be there when things get rough.
Down at the mall even though we had no money,
Laughing at anything and everything, yet none of it was funny.
Driving around the block, or baking things all day,
We never really ran out of things to say.
You’re locked up only a few hours away now, but it seems so far.
I wish I could be down there, where you are.
Why do two best friends you’ll ever know,
Have to be split up, because one is forced to go?
Now that we’re so far apart,
I love you even more.
Maybe we both love too much,
But, hey, that’s what friends are for.
Each time they say your name,
A tear forms in my eye,
How can I be happy,
If all I seem to do is cry?
You weren’t supposed to leave me,
This has to be a dream.
I cant accept your absence,
And take goodbye for what it means.
You left me lost and broken,
I still can’t find my way.
Months have passed real slowly,
But it’s harder every day.
I will never forget you,
Though we are far apart,
I miss you so much baby,
And love you with all my heart.

A poem by Suzanne(my friend).

Uyiril Edho -

This song, currently shows my emotions towards this period of my life because I miss HIM now. This month April was a very special month for both of us because we understood each other after a long drag of fights which lasted for the last twenty days in 2006. I still remember the way we got back together and how understood the other's feelings. I miss him and he knows it but still it can never happen again.

Even Though You Hurt Me....

Even though you hurt me..
I still love you.
And now that you've hurt me.
I know i cant make it through.
You left me for dead.
And now i sit alone
Thinking of how you told me you loved me
and how it was all in my head
Even though you hurt me....
I still long for your touch.
My body aches for your presence.
And in the end, its all just too much.
You're everything to me
My heart and my soul.
And even though you hurt me...
And my heart is what you stole.
I still love you.
I hope that you can see.
That you totally and completely mean everything to me.