The Other Woman

Priya felt angry, indignant, disappointed and curious .She went to look in the mirror. A face with delicate and beautiful features looked back. The sindoor was a short prominent red line at the top. She had always loved putting on that sindoor even though Vinoth never seemed to glance at it. He never seemed to be aware.

Today, when she had finally decided that she had gone long enough without a single loving word and no children, she decided to take a peek into Vinoth’s dairy. Now she wondered. Who was this Kavita? How had she captured my Vinoth’s heart when they were at school? School time crushes never lasted long, least of all for more than 10 years. Where was she now? And how Priya cursed her father-in -law. How could he have forced his own son in first deserting his love when he was 20 and at 24 marry someone he did not have any feelings for?

As she sat thinking, Vinoth entered the bedroom. His face contorted with fury as he saw the dairy lying open. His large, dark eyes, which Priya had loved since the very first time she saw them, seemed to snap. But his voice was calm as he spoke, "You had no right to read my dairy, but since you have, let me inform you, I can never forget Kavita or stop loving her. It is 6 years since I last saw her. But I love her and always will"

The next day Priya and Vinoth were at the hospital due to her headache. As they waited in a stony silence, the clerk who was monitoring the patients told another nurse, "Hey, call Miss Kavita. She will know how to best deal with this case." Vinoth did not seem to notice. Priya wondered if he thought there were hundreds of Kavitas in the world.

A woman entered with the nurse. She wasn’t beautiful but certainly secured a second glance. She was sweet—but something in her eyes said that she had suffered. Priya felt very interested in her. Glancing at Vinoth to see whether he shared her interest, she saw him staring at the woman as though he had seen a ghost. She too, went rigid, when the nurse said, "Kavita madam, Priya ma'am’s case should be looked after by you"

Before Kavita could turn, her cell rang. She listened to whoever was speaking, and then sighed. "Ma, how many times do I have to tell you, I wont marry. I have given my heart to someone…. I don’t care if he is already married to someone else"

She turned, smiling at Priya. "Are you Priya? I am a counselor. The kind of pain that you have-sudden, continuous, with no appetite – it is a sign of depression or shock." Her eyes lingered on Priya’s sindoor. ‘Is your husband here?" Vinoth spoke up "yes"
The three stared at each other in silence. Kavita broke the silence in a would-be jovial voice with the tiniest catch in it "Come on in, my cabin’s over there"

Three months later, Priya was pregnant. Her marriage was on track. All thanks to Kavita. She had brought Priya and Vinoth very close to each other. After her work with them was over, she left for America. That was only about a month ago. She had insisted on taking Vinoth’s diary. Now, as Priya and Vinoth were laughing about some silly jokes, a telephone call came long distance. Kavita had committed suicide…………… Life went on……… Vinoth loved Priya now, but Kavita was not forgotten—she was his daughter.

The love to be..

The one you are,
Is the one I love.

If you weren't you,
Then I wouldn't have loved you.
But then,
I would have loved who?

You allow me to be me,
And you always be you.
Let the world see,
How much I love you.

A New Addiction

This is my new addiction. Its my fish Aquarium on Facebook. I hardly visit all these so-called-networking sites. About a week ago, I had this invite from a friend who wanted me to join on this game called Aquarium. It just started out as a game but now I just cannot leave them out.. OMG!!! Its already time... I've got to feed them.. C ya later..

Broken heart

It's been a long time now
Since you broke my heart
Thought i could easily get over it
Knowing what I did was just right
But here i am
Still holding back the
Feelings i still have
I can't let you go no matter what...
I still can't mend my broken heart!

"Hey sexy lady"

You guys must all be wondering what I'm going to say in this post. Its nothing to do about sex or may be. If you had watched Sun Tv for the past one month you have noticed that this song " Hey Sexy Lady" Promo of the movie Ninaithale Inikkum. Since Sun TV was promoting their own "MOVIE" in their own "CHANNELS", you would have seen it like a 100 times a day. Same thing happens in Sun music, K TV and also Chutti TV. So literally all of us were only seeing this a dozen time at an hours time on the TV. We, at home, all the tamil channels together so that we can keep changing it for convince sake.

Last week, my cousin POOJA visited me. She came home because her mom had come to help my sister pack for her trip abroad. So it was my duty to keep Pooja out of site so that they will be able to do their work peacefully. ( Pooja can be a pain-in-the-b*tt sometimes). Since I gel with her very well, I was given this responsibility. She was playing some Dora games in my laptop and suddenly she started singing the song " Hey Sexy lady". I was shocked and terrified. I mean, it dint affect me when I was watching this song all the while on TV or when I could see Prithiviraj dancing with some item girl. It was such a shock when I heard my 5yrs old cousin sing it. I told her immediately where did she hear it( such a obvious question, of course). She coolly replied on Sun TV and also said that she loved song. And she said, " Akka, en class la ellarukum Prithiviraj na romba pudikum." Meaning that her classmates like the actor Prithiviraj very much.

Excuse me!!! :( Have I got something wrong here. A bunch of 5 year olds talking about Prithiviraj. This certainly put me off the whole day. I cannot image even seeing such kind of stuff when I was that young. I remember asking my friend in my 7th standard about Crush. So much of exposure these kids have these days. Actually this was just the beginning. Since I had a mild attack, I switched off the TV (literally pulled out the plug)and laptop and took her out in the evening to have a nice and fresh walk. Since we had a park nearby and we would also have a lot of small kids visiting the park. I thought it would be a great place for her to play and have some fun.

The park was pretty crowded because it was a Saturday. My place is nearby the boat club road in Chennai wherein most of the people are likely to be more well off. And most of the kids were from these places. So I let her to have her own time, while I sat on the bench watching her from a distance. She was playing for the while, when suddenly she stopped and looked at a kid who was dress all glittery and fancy. That glittery girl, for that age, was looking like a real glam doll. She was pretty, cute and very shy. So Pooja went near her and was talking something. I really couldn't hear it so I went little close to eavesdrop on my 5 yr old cousin. She was asking where she had got the dress, those silver coloured sandals and also those lovely barbie girl earring, this girl was wearing. Knowing my cousin, I asked her to stop worrying about all the that and asked to continue playing. She would leave that shy girl who kept running around trying to avoid Pooja from following her. I thought enough was enough and threatened Pooja to take her back home, if she dint stop annoying the poor girl.

My Drama-queen cousin started to cry and I had to give up and let her play for some more time until it got dark. Then took her back home, by that time all the packing work was done. The thing why I was talking about this incident is because I think its not ethical to have those poor kids know about all these stuff only when they are just old enough to eat food by themselves. Of course, they will have their time to get to know all that they are so eager to know until them I hope they stay clean. Clear instruction are given to my aunt not to let her watch TV for more than 1 hour a day and that too only Chutti TV or Pogo or Cartoon network.

Akila's birthday

Today a friend of mine whom I don’t talk much these days  celebrated her birthday and she is 24 today. I want to first wish her. Akila, Happy birthday de. You are one of the few girl friends I had and I really liked you genuinely. So take care and wish you get all that you needed and stay happy. Thanks for everything. I really miss you very much and I wouldn’t also forget you for things you have done to separate each one of us who meant so  much to me. There is a negative side to everybody and remember you are not perfect. Whatever happens, I never want you to be sad and take care of my friends who still believe you are perfect.  I never meant to ignore you but still my guilt feeling kicks me at the spot saying that I should have wished you today. I know its never too late but I think you were not worth it. Take care. All the best for your life.

No matter how...

No matter how hurt I am I will love.
No matter how physical needs I feel I will love.
No matter how hardship life treasures are I will love.
No matter the decisions made and the wrong turns I make I will love.
I will love with all my heart and all my might for love is life and I will hang to it until my day has come.

Waiting!!!

My friends tell me I'm crazy, that i shouldn't love you anymore,
that I deserve to be happy, but can't they see?  I'll never be happy
with anyone but you.  So baby, take ur time, I know in time you'll see
that Im the one for you, your one and only, that we were meant to be.


Waiting on you is all I want to do, cause I know one day, all the pain will pay off.
One day youll wake up and see that we were meant to be.
I know your getting over her, and thats okay, cause I've been there to.
I just want you to know that i'll always care, that i'll always b here for you.

Waiting for the day when well be together.

Waiting for the day when youll see you belong with me

Waiting for the day when Ill hold you in my arms again.


Waiting, just. . . .waiting

TELL....

I feel the need

To tell you ….

..No!

I won’t say

But tell me what you still

Feel, remember, see

When your eyes meet mine

Or when u remember

On the past times

When we had it all

When I was the one

That you decided a future was set

What is it ?

That goes through your mind

Don’t lie

I been hurt enough

So just spill

Have you moved on?

Even though you have hurt me without knowing, I still love you!!!

I wish you knew how I felt
I wish you looked at me straight in the eye
And know how I love you
I never believed in love at first sight until I saw you
I wish you were here beside me I wish I was in your arms
crying while it rains so you won’t notice that my love for you is hurting me
when you smile my whole body throws fireworks
and when I realize I'm imagining it all stops
but when you actually walk by me I just don’t know what to do

And when you looked at me and I stopped breathing
I realized it wasn’t me you're looking at
you can break my heart
You can hurt me
but in the end I'll still love you
And to prove it I'm writing you this poem aren’t i??

I still love you and forever will......

True Love

It seems so unbelievable
That in such a short time.
You weaved your magic
Right into my mind.

It seems so amazing
Even though we're apart.
You've closed the distance
And came into my heart.

It seems so unreal
But like a hot, amber coal.
You've reached deep inside
And went straight to my soul.

You've awaken my feelings
As love was taking its toll.
But now you've touched
My mind, my heart, my soul.

An SMS to boost my Love

A common friend (for me and HIM), Ram sent me a text message.. Since Ram is the only person who knows about my secret passion for HIM.
Here is what it said:

"Do you know why GOD created gap between fingers?
Because one day a True Lovable person will come and fill those gaps by holding your hands"
Wow... I've received this message many times, but it dint really have an impact on me but this evening I was so overwhelmed by it. I hope it happens fast.

BTW, thanks RAM. You are the best

That's the way it is

 My blogger friend said this was the song I should believe in because I should never give up my love for no reason... This song was one of my favourite. Never thought it would have an real impact in my life.. Well now it did.. Thanks ApocalypsE...

I can read your mind and I know your story
I see what you're going through
It's an uphill climb, and I'm feeling sorry
But I know it will come to you

Don't surrender 'cause you can win
In this thing called love

When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

When you question me for a simple answer
I don't know what to say, no
But it's plain to see, if you stick together
You're gonna find a way, yeah

So don't surrender 'cause you can win
In this thing called love

When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

When life is empty with no tomorrow
And loneliness starts to call
Baby, don't worry, forget your sorrow
'Cause love's gonna conquer it all, all

When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

That's the way it is
That's the way it is, babe
Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

Times Changing!!

Someone is happy today... Someone is getting noticed by someone special... I hope someone is trying her best to get it out... Someone wanted to share it with everyone... so here she is.... Someone is Raji... I miss blogging people because I have been cut of without internet... but now I'm back.. I think. Too much do but too little time.. MBA is driving me crazy and so is HIM... But he has got the idea that I'm interested in him... Love is too complicated...OMG... Please give me a break

That You Trust And Believe in Me

I just want you to know…
How important you are to me,
Knowing that you care and understand me,
…That you trust and believe in me.
i just want you to know…
How wonderful it is having you as a friend,
Knowing that you are always there for me,
…that you will always be my friend.
I just want you to know…
That I know how wonderful you are,
…That i do care,
…and that I do love you,
I just want you to know.

Second Chance

My absence to the blogger world is because I am under total confusion for a long time now. My confusion right now is that can you fall in love for the second time? Yes, I said it. I've been lately thinking about my friend who has certain uniqueness which has impressed me. The commitment for life has changed. Seeing another friend of mine getting married has changed my feelings for him. He was there always to hold when I was down. I remember being there in every aspects of my life these days. Eventhough we aren't speaking that much I think I want to lead the rest of my life with him. Will he understand my true feelings for him or will he deny me as I was once in love with another coward? Will god let me have a second chance to love which I'm sure that I would not let go off? Will my parents agree to me? Will I lead the normal life that has always been a dream for me? Am I doing the right thing? Is it possible to be in love AGAIN? Please help me... I need you guys to just let me know that I'm right because at the end of the day, it matters. I want to be in love again that for sure.