Starting over

I'm trying to find something to base my life upon,
Something in this strange world that goes on and on.
As the years go by and time fades away,
What used to be "good days" are now filled with dismay.
Tomorrow comes, and then again, it goes,
And my ambition to become something more, grows and grows.
Around the corner, yet miles away,
The life I want now, gets closer each day.
All I've ever wanted was something to live for,
I don't want to be this little person anymore.
I've been basing my life upon what others think,
I wish I could go back and redo everything, every time an eye would blink.
I've fought to become who I am and what I want to be,
I have to remind myself that one day, I will be free.
Free from the rules I followed as a child,
When everything was a game and life was so mild.
Now times have changed and I realize nothing is fair,
And sometimes it seems like nobody even cares.
It's like no one pays attention to what I feel is best for me,
And what I think about the way some things should be.
I understand now, that I'm pretty much on my own,
And I know a lot of what I can do will never be known.
All the time, I think about everything I can't say, what I have to keep in,
And by doing this, my thoughts only get more complicated and deepen.
Soon I hope to find out who I am, and what I am meant to become,
I want to know where I'm going, I don't need to be reminded of where I came from.

Mind your own business..I don't care a damn about you!!!

In life when people are disappointed and depressed, some people just want to make things worse. I have my life to live and I have lot of people to care and walk with me. I just want the others who think I'm nothing... Thank you people... You make me want to live more and laugh more... Your criticism make me want to prove to you that I'm happy and always will be.. I don't give a damn about money. Here I would like to quote a famous saying by Mr. Vadivelu. "Hey money come today and go tomorrow ya" LOL.. Jokes apart, if you have money, have it. I don't think money can buy you everthing in life except monetary benefit and physical things. It can never buy you love, care and happiness.. I' m happy with what I have and what I am.. I live my life the way I want to live... So Mind your own business and get the hell of out of my life and dont ruin my life with what I'm left with....

Vote for Sarath Babu

My friend Ram asked me, " Y are you wasting your time writing about politics and stuffs about the Srilanka? You shouldn't write about such things." Then I said, " This is my world and in my world, all these are happening and I have my right to talk about it."

This post is dedicated to Sarath Babu, one of my favourite entrepreneur. One thing, I found very inspirational about him was that he never forgot where he was from and wants to do something good for his people as well as for his country. When I look at him, I think that my problems are nothing compared to what he has gone through and when he can overcome it, why can't I?? He does so many things to motivate me to work more and life more. So I support SARATH BABU for this elections as well as planning to vote for him. Please lets have some change to this country... You can also visit Sarath's website and his symbol is SLATE..

I'm Not What You See

People look at me and see a perfect little girl
But what they don't know is deep down inside
I'm troubled in this world
From my fears I hide
And I try to act strong
Like nothing bothers me
I act like nothing's wrong
So you can't see
That I'm not perfect
I struggle all the time
But I have come to the point
I'm tired of acting like I'm fine
I'm tired of acting fake
And I need to be more aware that this is not a dream
That I am awake
So to anyone I ever hurt for not being me
I'm sorry you finally know this
And I'm sorry I'm not everything you want me to be
But that is something I wish to be
Perfect

Surya-- cute and innocent

I need it all !!

This silence is eating me

I need what i lost all back
Back to my old self 
Back to my innocence
Back to my childhood
back to my unknown
But they say what lost 
Is lost for ever and ever

Anna Dhaanam

Annam means food... Dhaanam means giving... Together meaning- Giving food as charity. At home, We believe that giving food is the best charity. Today, being Akshaya Tritiya, we always give food to people who are needy.


Akshaya Tritiya is a festival which is celebrated to bring good health and prosperity for everyone. But for the past decade, it has become a money making festival for all the corporate gold houses.. I don't remember that when my grandmother was alive, it was celebrated this way. My grandmother like my mom now, used to give food to the beggars and needy.... She made sure that it was given to lots of people.. but at this time, Akshaya Tritiya was not celebrated by buying gold and staking it in your bank locker. Somewhere some astrologer must have said its good to get gold and every marketer must have caught up with this idea to attract the customer. Now you can see celebrities, commoners, fashion designer and most of all the gold merchants talking about buying gold, platinum, diamond, etc. This day has become a gold gamble day for everybody. I don't live up to such kind of marketing. I, as a rule, make sure that we follow what my grandmother did when she was still there with us and so does everybody at home.... 

Anna dhaanam are given in all the temple all over India. Its not that only people who are needy should have it. Its given to all the people who are willing to eat at that place. My mom once took me to this temple in Kumbakonam and I did have anna dhaanam there and another temple in chennai. My sister was too embrassed to eat there with all the beggars beside us but I dint care after all they are humans too..  Just one single difference. It doesn't matter.

My cousin brother has started this NGO about two years ago. They take up a village and help them educate and provide food almost daily. You can visit their website @ Good Hearts. They also have a yearly blood donation camp and other stuffs to help small scale enterprenuers to bring up their talents. These are just a gang of friends who started this organisation on behalf of their late friend Praveen whom I also happen to know because he was my school senoir.