MOOD OF THE DAY

Birthday Bashes... During exams Times AAARGH!!!

My Sweet and naughtiest cousin POOJA celebrated her 5th birthday yesterday(29/07/09) which, of course I missed due to exams. I miss that sweetie pie. I called up in the morning before going to exams and wished her. Then made sure Murugesh wished her after exams which she asked for. Don't ask me who Murugesh is: He is my classmate from IIPM who is Pooja's pet.

Anyways.. So today, I have two of my classmates celebrating birthdays. That would be Nishanth and Pradap. Both of them are personally good friends of mine, but since its exams we are unable to celebrate their birthday.

Then last but never the least, Saddam,(now only close friend who cares a lot about me), is celebrating his birthday on the Sunday(2.8.09). I want to celebrate his birthday too.. Since its the final year for all of us and we would be leaving in another 6 months of college, I feel so sad about us not being together even on our special days.. Anyways I hope that atleast we could re-unite in celebrating each other's birthday..

PS: My dad turns 50 this month... Half Century... Yippee....And I wish all these people Happy Birthday and Wishing you happiness all the way.. Have fun. Take care..

What comes and goes... I still have to live

Whatever happens, I'm keep telling myself that life has to go on, no matter what. Eventhough, it makes me sick, I still need to survive. Getting back to my old self will take a long time again but I have my exams coming for which I've got to put my mind and soul to work on it. I know that Life can never be the same as it was. This is what I always get. My life is like that. But I've learned to survive. Like my profile says that I still have a life to live. I read this latest post from Angie's blog about writing a letter to your future me. Well I've written one for myself.

Thanks Angie. It has given me the strength to go on again. It made me realise that life is worth living and talking about it later. I've written the letter so joyously that it would make me read it after 2 years and make me that I should write more letters like this. So that one day, I wish I could feel happy about myself or sad about things which I have missed. My life is not perfect. Nobody's is. So why crib about what has happened in the past and when I can try to make my present worth living. I've dediced that life can change and change is permanent. It has its own ups and downs. Things, which I most importantly mentioned in the letter is to get back what I lost... my love, my true friends, my sisters, and most of all, MYSELF. This future letter thing has given me the courage to achieve certain limits and heights which I have aimed for. I don't want to disappoint myself  that after two years thinking that I haven't lived worth while. Many thanks to Angie.. You rock girl!!


SO at last what I was trying to say is that I won't be writing any posts till my exams get over and which will happen on the 6th of august. And most importantly after exams, I'l be myself again.. Until then. Take care.. C you guys around. But I will not miss to read your updates. Keep Posting. Happy blogging!! :)

Lost a good friend forever.....

I've lost that close friend again with whom I can never get back. I cannot face him anymore but I still miss him. He was a true friend, the one whom you can never find these days. I lost him for reasons which can never be explained. All I wanted was him to be happy.. I did stupid things for that. I hate myself for saying or doing those things. My friend cannot be replaced. All that left of me is the remains of our happy memories together. We can never have those things anymore. Life is too painful but I'm learning to TAKE LIFE AS IT COMES. Its worth crying for some reasons and he is one of them. I've learned to learn from my mistakes. Here I'm trying to learn again. Please god, don't give me anymore people who will leave after everything gets uptight and personal. Its his life and his decision but my tears. Lost him and its forever....???

PS: I hope it not forever.

Empty Space

Living in an empty place
A place of boundless space
With an invisible corners of chaos
It's choking you to death

Living in an empty place
A place of a deafening silence
With the echos of your soul screaming
Impairing your hearing system

Making you feel the pain
Slowly it's tearing your life apart
And giving you unbearable numbness
Like a knife cutting out your heart

Living in an empty place
Why can't find a new way to start?
Too much space where to build a dream
Without someone you found nowhere to fit in

I miss you, Praveen...

The one my heart and soul confided in
The one I felt the safest with
The one who knew just what to say
To make me laugh again

And let the light back in
I miss my friend

I miss the colors that you brought into my life
Your golden smile, those eyes
I miss your gentle voice
In lonely times like now
Sayin' it'll be alright
I miss my friend

I miss those times
I miss those days
I even miss our silly fights
The makin up, the talks
And those canteen walks
I miss my friend

I miss my friend
I miss my friend

Mood of the day !!

I miss you friend!!!

I  would like to share the on-going process of fight between two so- called best friends( atleast that's what I thought). I've not left with any close friends at this moment( Ram and Prasanna, excuse me!! You pple are still good friends to me but I just had so much of affection on him). I even consider him (Mr.P) as my closest friend.

Since college started, I've met up with a lota people but only a few have become that close to me by heart. Literally, to my heart. I just cannot bare the fact that he is ignoring me for the fact that i was just listening to a conversation which was happening between two people. I was already betrayed by my so- called best friends about a few months ago. I think I just dont have the fate to be with good people. One minute, there, I felt I was missing the best phase of my life. I'm seriously pissed off. I'm not myself. I don't smile, eat properly. Cannot even look at HIM these days. I miss you, P. Please talk to me. I feel that someone else have replaced me in the place with was so special for me in your heart. I don't want to come to college anymore or even look @ other people. All I want is to be with you. I don't want this issue to spilt us. I've already missed so many good people and dont want it to happen with you too. I begged you to talk back to me. Atleast tell me what do you expect of me..I've asked any friend this question. All I want to tell you is that everybody cannot be you.Please try to keep your differences away when it comes to friends.. Life can never be the same if we guys are not back together..

Please come back n taalk to me.. miss you very badly..understand me pa..

Mood of the Day :)

FANTASTIC FOUR :)

Tagged by a new blogger friend Bharathi..

Four places I have lived (not in any particular order):

Chennai

Kumbakonam

Bangalore

Chidambaram

Four T.V shows that I love(d) to watch (not in any particular order):

Friends

Everybody loves Raymond

Hannah Montana

Faith and Hope(over Petera iruku la)

Four places that I have been on vacation:

Chennai (with family and friends)

Pichavaram

Tada Falls near Andhra

Waynad

Four of my favourite food items:

Biryani

Chola Poori

Naan and Panner Butter Masala

KFC Burger J

Four websites that I visit daily:

Gmail

Orkut

Facebook

And last but never the least our blogs

Four places I would rather be (not in any particular order of preference):

Paris

Madurai

Delhi

UK

Four things I hope to do before I die..... (not in any particular order):

My priorities for these things are the 1^st in the list so here goes nothing:

Buy my mom and dad, my grandparent’s old house.

Take a world tour with friends

Pamper myself with ice creams and sundaes

Talk to Mr. C.K Ranganathan (founder of Cavin Kare, Chennai)

Four novels I wish I was reading for the first time:

Kane and Abel

Harry Potter Series

Sidney Sheldon ( all of em)

Desert Rose

Four movies that I can watch over and over again:

Minnale ( I do that almost every week on Raj TV)

Gladiator

Princess Diaries 1 & 2

Pasanga( loved it)

ICE AGE 1, 2 & 3(Hilarious)

Four people I believe will respond to this tag:

I tag Raji, Anand, Nikhil and Priya

Mood of the day!!!

Questionnaire

Found this on one of those blogs and wanted to try it out becoz I just wanted to something cheerful for a change as I'm really not in the mood these dayz... So here it is.. Answers to these questions.

Q: When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
A: I should have smiling face today too..:)

Q: How much cash do you have in your wallet right now?
A: Empty. Nil Balance

Q: What’s a word that rhymes with DOOR?
A: Soar

Q: What is your favourite ring tone on your phone?
A: Splitsvilla 2 Theme song by Agnee.

Q: Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
A: My Class Mate Hariharan

Q: What are you wearing right now?
A: Night Gown

Q: Do you label yourself?
A: I label myself “ Cookie”

Q: Name the brand of the shoes you currently own?
A: Puma(just now got a new pair)

Q: Bright or Dark Room?
A: Bright and colourful. (Darkness not so much)

Q: What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
A: Cool Person who loves to Bitch and rant more..LOL

Q: What does your watch look like?
A: Big and Oval. Mostly men’s watches

Q: What were you doing at midnight last night?
A: Talking to my friend BALA who is in Delhi

Q: What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
A: Asking for about my cousin “POOJA”

Q: What’s a word that you say a lot?
A: Machi

Q: Who told you he/she loved you last? (Please exclude spouse, family, and children)
A: That would be my friend “Vinoth”

Q: Last furry thing you touched?
A: My Dog “ Ceasar”

Q: Favorite age you have been so far?
A: Now @ 23

Q: What was the last thing you said to someone?
A: I was just talking to my friend Murugesh about his plans to get back to Chennai from his native place where he is right now.

Q: The last song you listened to?
A: Masakalli from Delhi-6

Q: Where did you live in 1987?
A: Chennai, India

Q: Are you jealous of anyone?
A: I envy women with babies. (I just got to have one SOON)

Q: Is anyone jealous of you?
A: Yes, I have a huge number of followers.

Q: Name three things that you have on you at all times?
A: My mobile, my purse and my pen

Q: What’s your favorite town/city?
A: The best would be Chennai and Now I like Chidambaram and Kumbakonam

Q: When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper and mailed it?
A: I don’t think I’ve ever done that stuff

Q: Can you change the oil on a car?
A: Naay.. Do we have to that??

Q: Your first love/big crush: what is the last thing you heard about him/her?
A: He works in some Networking company. Still cute thoughJ

Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?
A: Hmmm.. That would be my back.

Q: What is your current desktop picture?
A: Birds flying over a sea… Freely

It Hurts...

It's hurt, when people say you are not who you are, It's hurt, when people are watching every step you made, It's hurt, when people are judging us too much, it's hurt, when everything around you is not right, it's hurt, when you didn't know who you are anymore, it's hurt, when people thought you can't get everything right, it's hurt. when you hated someone, it's hurt, when people are playing our heart too much. It's hurt, when you don't want it to happens, It's hurt, when all you want is peace and joy. but you can't get it...

Show me the meaning of beiing lonely..

Behind my smile!!!

No matter how...

No matter how hurt I am I will love.
No matter how physical needs I feel I will love.
No matter how hardship life treasures are I will love.
No matter the decisions made and the wrong turns I make I will love.
I will love with all my heart and all my might for love is life and I will hang to it until my day has come.

Heyyyyyyyyy. Another HP movie??

I am a huge fan of Harry Potter.. I love the way she writes. She was one of those people who inspired me to write more and more. This book also brought my friend( bharani) and me together. This book gave us so much to talk about that we never got tired of it. We cried together for Dumbledore dying( which happens in the 6th book), then we had cried for Black's death and we talked about the way the ending in the seventh could have been modified or changed. We discussed about the creativity of this amazing author J.K Rowling and the potential she had. Ron being the funniest character was her favourite and mine too.. We loved Dumbledore and also wanted to study in a school like Hogwarts. It was that fantasy world which we would have loved to travel to.. She wanted to be a witch and we always wanted to believe that there was this world of witchcrafts and wizardry existing now. We thought that someday, we could meet Hagrid.. So many dreams and wishes we shared together.. We loved the little romance between Hermione and Ron and we hated Harry's relationship with Cho Chang. I was so relieved when we knew that Harry fell in love with Ginny @ last.I could still remember that when Harry had his first kiss with Cho, Ron asked him how he felt and then Harry would reply saying that it was wet. Bharani, like my blogger friend, RAJI was a big dreamer. Those days, our home phone bills would hit the sky which, of course, was also followed by scolding from both the parents.

" Your mother died to save you. If there is one thing Voldermort cannot understand, it is love"


One of the famous quotes given by Albus Dumbledore gave the both of so much of importance that we decided to have that quote in our bedroom doors forever. Something just cannot be substituted. So are my memories about Harry Potter and my friend Bharani. "Bharani, If you are out there, reading my blog.. Please get back with me. I want to see the forth coming Harry potter and the Half blood Prince with you. You are the best person who I would never like to miss in my life.. Love you Lots.. Missing you truly..
your friend forever
RAJI"

PS: Go watch the movie Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince on 17th July with your friends..

Must watch video.. Made me cry...

Crack...

Crack..

There lays my heart

Broken on the Floor..

One more smile..

One more lie..

It’s okay..

Is it possible??

To be the happy person to the world?

And deep inside be broken till the very last inch??

Still..

I cannot hate you..

My heart somehow keeps beating.

Beating for you..

Beating for hope..

Beating..to be broken again?

Friendship can be a burden sometimes!!!

Being in an MBA program, we have to do a lot of work. Assignments, case studies, presentation ( both groups as well as individual), homework, classwork, JAM etc.. You name it and we have it.. Something like that.They call this Management Stress. This is the kind of stress which we are practising to undergo before we step into the real "Corporate World." So many talks and others things doesn't bother me.. Until a friend says," Raji, please do that assignment for me too."

Sometimes, its okay when they have a genuine reason but many of them don't. Sometimes, I feel that I'm being used by most of them in my gang. Friends of course.. We are all close and we are here to help each other become better than what we are now but not at the cost of other people's work. I feel that this adds on more pressure to my education. I'm a person who would never say "NO" for an answer. I'll always say, "If I finish my work and if I have the time,I'll help you with it." It bugs me.. To the extent that I may even get angry..

Anger is not the solution for any problem. I mean if they do their work, its for their own benefit. If some work is given and it should be completed by the respective person, so that they can gain knowledge. So what, if it goes wrong?? It never goes right always. So what if you don't get marks?? Doesn't matter.. Atleast you are learning from your mistakes and your own way. If I 'm that intelligent then why the hell don't you guys take me in for a business partnership which you are planning to start up now. I just feel fed up and irritated. I'm just a friend who has fun and a friend who does all the work so that you get credit and better marks than me. I don't give a damn about marks but I give a damn about the appreciation. Atleast a thank you would do. Or a chocolate which would mean, "Raji, Thank you da." That the gratitude I would expect from anyone. One thing is for sure, I'm planning to do work to get bigger and better and do work on my own and give the most best possible outcome from my side so that I can worthy than anyone else. I'm not putting the blame on anyone particularly because I know a few of my friends discuss a lot  about my posts these days. This is my humble request to anyone out there.. Give your gratitude to the person concern. Afterall, a help is a help, be it small or big.

Love is like magic....

Love is like magic
and it always will be,
For love still remains
life’s sweet mystery.

Love works in ways
that are wondrous and strange
And there’s nothing in life
that love cannot change!

Love can transform
the most commonplace
Into beauty and splendor
and sweetness and grace.

Love is unselfish,
understanding and kind,
For it sees with its heart
and not with its mind.

Love is the answer
that everyone seeks…
Love is the language
that every heart speaks.

Love can’t be bought,
it is priceless and free,
Love, like pure magic,
is life’s sweet mystery!

A call that made me happy today..

As you all know that I have a blogger friend ( who also shares the same name as mine) RAJI... She was visiting India from USA.. It was a short vist and before leaving she had mailed me asking for my number and would like to visit me if possible. I was thrilled. It a true feeling because I started off my blog career with her as a role model or a motivator. I love the way she writes. She inspires me a lot and as well as becoming a close friend in the process.

So I had mailed back saying that I would love to meet her and I also given her my number. I knew she didn't belong to Chennai but knew she would be visiting Chennai. So I was unfortunate to meet her but alas, today @ 7.30pm, I received a call from RAJI. It was pure bliss. I thought a dream has become reality. We just spoke for about 10 mins or less, but felt like I knew her all my life. May be that's why, we share the same name.
Thanks Raji.. For remembering me and also calling me up. I hope atleast next time we could meet... :) :)


PS: You made my day, Raji.. How many people would get to have a friend with the same name and would have the opportunity to write about it...??? Well, I'm one of them.

Waiting!!!

My friends tell me I'm crazy, that i shouldn't love you anymore,
that I deserve to be happy, but can't they see?  I'll never be happy
with anyone but you.  So baby, take ur time, I know in time you'll see
that Im the one for you, your one and only, that we were meant to be.


Waiting on you is all I want to do, cause I know one day, all the pain will pay off.
One day youll wake up and see that we were meant to be.
I know your getting over her, and thats okay, cause I've been there to.
I just want you to know that i'll always care, that i'll always b here for you.

Waiting for the day when well be together.

Waiting for the day when youll see you belong with me

Waiting for the day when Ill hold you in my arms again.


Waiting, just. . . .waiting

Paakathey

This song is dedicated to HIM. I hate it when you look at me like that. I just cannot take my eyes off you when you look at me like that... please don't see me like that. Your looks kills me everyday. It takes my breath away and when I think about it and see that you are not mine in reality, its hurts... a lot. Don't see me like that. Paakathey...

Class mates--Best song

Love Crisis... Attention everyone

Everything happens for a reason. My friend is undergoing a crisis in his love life. He thinks that this girl, whom he fell in love was a angel straight from heaven, but lately I found out that it wasn't so. I think the girl is not that much perfect as compared to him. I have the proof for it and I've also heard it from a very reliable source.. So I need to tell him that she isn't so perfect. I just cannot bare the fact that he is wasting his tears for nothing at all. My dear friend is the gem of all the guys, I have seen before. She is what you call a B***H.

I just cannot open my mouth to tell him. If I do it openly, I'm definitely going to lose my friendship with him and if I don't, I think its like me not being truthful to him. I think he deserves a much better girl who will love him very much. He is a great guy and kind-hearted friend, but at a crisis time like this, no one will ever want to hear bad things about this gf. Well here goes my mind, "Tell it---- no, don't tell it. But you have to do it for his sake. He would hate me for doing this. Oh god, please help me save my friend."

Guys gimme suggestion so as to I could tell him about it?? Please..

It was gone.....

Your love haunts me like a ghost
I love you yet i want to hate you the most
I thought true love had finally come
but before I knew it, it was gone!!!