Updating you on my life.. 65 things about me..

Thank you Guria for tagging me.. :):)

Something here are known by anyone who know me personally... revealing secrets.. God help me..:P

   1. Graduated high school.
   2. Kissed someone.
   3. Smoked a cigarette. (10^th standard holidays :D)
   4. Got so drunk you passed out. (Passed out totally..; P, everyone tries, recently in Paris)
   5. Rode every ride at an amusement park.
   6. Collected something stupid.
   7. Gone to a rock concert.
   8. Helped someone.
   9. Gone fishing. 
  10. Watched four movies in one night.
  11. Lied to someone.
  12. Snorted cocaine.
  13. Smoked weed.
  14. Failed a subject. (Of course duh?? Who wouldn’t have?)
  15. Been in a car accident.
  16. Been in a tornado. 
  17. Watched someone die. (I hope I never do)
  18. Been to a funeral.
  19. Burned yourself. (Many times!!)
  20. Run a marathon.

  21. Cried yourself to sleep.
  22. Spent over 10,000 bucks in one day.
  23. Flown on an airplane.
  24. Cheated on someone.
  25. Been cheated on.
  26. Written a 10 page letter. (I’ve written a 5 page letter)
  27. Gone skiing.
  28. Been sailing. 
  29. Cut yourself.
  30. Had a best friend. (Still have one.. Love you pavitra)
  31. Lost someone you loved.
  32. Got into trouble for something you didn’t do.
  33. Stolen a book from the library. (I dint do it literally, I just forgot to give it back).
  34. Gone to a different country. (I am in a different country nowLL… But nothing like India).
  35. Watched the Harry Potter movies.(Zillion times)
  37. Fired a gun.
  38. Gambled in a casino. (Never seen one too)
  39. Been in a school play.
  40. Been fired from a job. (Not yet JJ)
  41. Taken a lie detector test. 
  42. Swam with dolphins.
  43. Voted for someone on a reality TV show.
  44. Written poetry.
  45. Read more than 20 books a year. (Studying in IIPM did pay of atleast like this)
  46. Gone to Europe. (LOVELY PLACE…)
  47. Loved someone you shouldn’t have.
  48. Used a colouring book over age 12. (Still use it with my cuz pooja.)
  49. Had a surgery.
  50. Had stitches. (Fractured my hand when I was 11).
  51. Taken a Taxi. (Everyday now)
  52. Had more than 5 IM conversations going on at once.
  53. Been in a fist fight.
  54. Suffered any form of abuse.
  55. Had a pet. (a dog, Raja... but he died immediately after my grandpa passed away).
  56. Petted a wild animal.
  57. Had your own credit card & bought something with it. (Will never use one).
  58. Dyed your hair.
  59. Got a tattoo.
  60. Had something pierced. (EARS :D)
  61. Got straight A’s.
  62. Known someone personally with HIV or AIDS.
  63. Taken pictures with a webcam.
  64. Lost something expensive. (I am so forgetful.. Lose a lot)

  65. Gone to sleep with music on.

Tag whoever reads this.. 

MY FIRST " BUTTERFLY IN THE STOMACH"

This post is an entry for a contest in Blogadda called MY FIRST CRUSH. This contest was an initiative by BLOGADDA and Pringoo

Time 7.30AM

School re-opened. New class. 7th std. 13 years old. Something told me I was going to be different this year.

I was walking on the school cycle stand to leave my cycle, awaiting my cousin's first day in my school. He was joining the 8th std. My father had instructed me to help him out around the school for the first few days. I told myself," Why the hell should I wait for him? Isn't he bigger than me?" *SIGH*

 Time 7.45AM
Still waiting for him. Someone was peddling the cycle, to the stand and stopped right besides to me. Who is this boy? He is sooo cute. Tall, lean,well built  Whats wrong with me? My hands are shivering. He looked at me with those beautiful eyes and smiled. Butterflies fluttering in my stomach atleast a thousand of them. (Still feel them sometimes). He said something which I do not remember till day. He smiled again and ran to the assembly hall. I melted then and there. Finally my cousin arrived. I did not want to move from that place yet school was just getting started.

Time 8.00AM
Took my cousin to his class, after which I went to my class. Kept my bag in my class and ran down to the assembly hall. My eyes searched for his eyes, his smile. But he was nowhere to be seen. *SIGH*

Time 12.00PM
The first four classes went in a jiffy. Too much work even on the first day of school. Went to check on my brother during my lunch hour. Of all the person, whom should I see when I entered that class, 8 B. HIM. He was standing with my brother and with a bunch of other guys.  My brother saw me, called me in and introduced me to them. My brother said, his name was Prabhu. Yeah, The same Prabhu who was completely invisible to me all these years in the same school. Skipping my heartbeat, I asked him in thamizh," Neenga intha schoola evulo nalla irukinga?" ( How long have you been in this school). He said, " For the past two years. I have seen you many times with your classmates. Havent you seen me?" I replied, "NO." He was so embarrassed. " I am mostly in the school grounds.. Hardly come to class." Then it struck me, Prabhu was a champion in sports. He was the captain for the school basketball team. He played many sports and won many championship awards. Then I said, " Oh Prabhu, I am a big fan of yours. You play the best basketball I have ever known." He smiled again, " Thanks". I melted again.
My brother, " You better go before class starts." I stared at him with so much envy that he turned his face to me and left with Prabhu and gang.

Time 2.30PM

I was the talk of the town by then.. First girl in class to have a crush on a senior. OKAY. I told a few girls in class. Then News spread like fire. Everybody in class wanted to know how it happened. I was already being teased with him.All this happened on the first day of school. Imagine, how I studied that year... ;P


School was over for the day, yet I did not want to go home. Waited near my cycle to see if Prabhu would come to take his cycle.

Time 3.00PM
Still no Prabhu. I guess he would be in practice. My champion.


Time 3.15PM
Prabhu came with the other guys. I was still near my cycle. He asked in thamizh," Innum nee vettuku pola?" ( Why haven't you gone home yet?) I said I was waiting for my brother and asked if he had seen him. Prabhu said," He had gone home already(which I knew, BTW). Okay, then I have to go. I will see you tomo. See ya..bye.."

Both of us, took our cycles together and peddled away to the gate. We went in the opposite direction. Yet my heart went behind him. I looked back to see whether he was still there, but he was gone already.

Time 3.30PM
Reached home. Ate lunch. Still thinking about him. Smiling to myself. That was the first time, I wrote a boy's name in my diary with a heart next to it. I still have that piece of paper as a memory of my first CRUSH. Prabhu, was and will always remain in my heart forever as my first crush.

Later, we became good friends since he became my brother's best buddy but I never had the guts to tell my crush on him. But , I knew, that he knew that I liked him. He left school after two years.
I still think about him sometimes. I hope to tell him one day, that I had my first crush on him.


I thank BLOGADDA to make me walk through the memory lane again. Taking me back to my school days where life was always beautiful

You can visit my other post on Prabhu at this link 

MISTAKES.....

I believed
When I shouldn't have
I loved you
When I never could have

You learned your lesson,
I learned mine
You should never love me
And I should never trust you

We both messed up
We both made mistakes
You made yours, I made mine
Now I wish I could rewind time

Take me back to before all this
Take me away from all the pain
Pull me away from our last kiss
And take me away from your sweet smile

Take away all your lies
I always thought you meant everything
Take away all these cries
And take away our final goodbyes

Yes, it could have been
Yes, we could have lasted
Forever was a possibly
But we both know how this turned out

You were my hero
I was your nothing
You gave me sorrow
That will forever last

Go move on
Go be happy
Leave me torn
Leave me sore

Flee from me
And I'll flee from you
Don't ever regret
What you're about to do

I still love you
With all my heart
Every day and every night,
All of this, right from the start.

KADAL....

This is a Thamizh Poem... Sorry all my fellow bloggers excuse if you dont understand Thamizh.

Uyirezhuthu, meiezhuthu, ayutha ezhuthu,
evai anaithum sernthathu thamizh ezhuthu!

evarril thamizhukku perumai serpathu -- zhakara ezhutha?

illai!!

unnai parri nan ezhuthum intha kirukkalana ezhuthu!

anbin adaiyalam amma endra munrezhuthu!

nam adaiyalam kathal endra munrezhuthu!

endrum undu pasam endra munrezhuthu!

arave illai kobam endra munrezhuthu!

endrum illai nan endra erandezhuthu!

endrum irupathu nam endra erandezhuthu!

nammul athigam iruapthu oodal endra munrezhuthu!

nam enainthirunthal vettri endra munrezhuthu!

ivai anaithum thantha iraivanukku nanri endra munrezhuthu!

pengalukku pidithathu abarna nagai!

anaal enakko un kalangamarra punnagai!

un kangalinal ennai parkach seithai!

punnagaiyal ennai mayangach seithai!

kaigalal ennai nerungach seithai!

katti thazhuvi ennai nanach seithai!

konjach seithai!

pin kenjach seithai!

alavarra anbinal en mathi mayangach seithai!

ithanaiyum seithai, sila nerangalil thaai!

enakku thaayagavum marivittai!

By Sriram Senthamizhan

Loniless is killing me ... :(

"To love and to be loved the basic necessity of every living creature... Why would I be different in it??"

Letting me go

Dad and Mama, I love you, I really do,
I can’t think of my world without you!

No more kiss good-night,
No more dad to hold me tight.
No more hugs to calm my fears,
No more hands to wipe my tears!
No more tucking in at night.

But I know I will see you once again
And then you will hold me tight,
When we are together again.

l want to be selfish and share
But what I want just isn’t fair.
Dad, I am living of dull life
Without you here by my side,

Mama, as long as I live
Not a moment will go by
When I don’t wish you were with me.

Daddy I love you, I really do,
Mama I love you, I really do,
Daddy I know you have to leave me
But I told you I don't want to go,
Why did you let me be alone,
Let me go.

I show no fear in my eyes and face
But I am scared without you besides me,

I don't want to cry when I'm talking to you,
But I cry when I'm alone.
Dad and Mama,

Just remember I will always love you.

LOVE .. DEATH

I am entering into the blogging world after 4 weeks of hectic and fun trip to Paris. This is a second guest post of my blog. It was written by siva who is a doctor and has a vivid sense of humor. Siva, has become a close companion in a very short period of time due to the fact that I enjoy his blah blah.. i.e Writing. He had FINALLY completed his MBBS and now doing his intern. I love what he writes and this story is something I hope you will all like. Siva writes @ My Experience with me 

He n Anamika got married recently n as usual they loved each other

for a brief period before marriage..

He s a civil Eng in a leading construction company n she a

program writer with rich father .She was unique - this unique doesnt

mean what all gals use in social networking sites profile in "about me" ..

she was really unique , bcos she

had BPD [ Bipolar disorder] (a form of psychiatric illness ppl with this ,

go to their extremes of mood either happy or sad ,btw they r normal ,

u cant easily diagnose them as most persons reading this blog r like that!! ) ..

And she was diagnosed early when she got her first depression n maniac

episodes after mother's death n

doctors assured her its very mild n she can lead a normal life with her drugs.

They were true she was quite normal after that n only once she got the

maniac form of elated mood thats when he proposed her ..

Like any other lover during love with a rich man's daughter

he dint mind about her illness n told her u r normal, only these docs r

confusing u to get few bucks from u .. she felt happy for him .
CHAPTER - I
He was starting his car from construction site to pick her from

office , he hated his job with dust n noise .. but she loved her office with all

forms of luxury n pleasant room spray ..

IN CAR

He : Hi ! good evening ..

She: gud evening.. u smell like a sheep :)

He : oh.. n u smell like n whore ..;)

she : ya.. i;m a whore to one man ..

IN HALL

He tries to give a instant hug but she resists with a smile n enters kitchen

.. it happens everytime n he curses himself " y these gals change after a yr

of marriage n becomes more professional even in bed "

DURING DINNER

Their conversation was mostly around their respective firms development n

movement of shares in stock exchange .. neither of them was looking into eyes,

during love when they had dinner the room fills with laughter n they had smiles

before each spoon of food n both used to compliment each other.. everything

has changed after marriage..

IN BEDROOM

After taking her tablet she checks the prescription for review date with the

doctor n files it back.. He always get irritated with her mr.perfect behavior of

filing things n even scold without knowing its going to save his life.. Like other

routine things making love also happens ,just happens within a time to make

two maggi noodles ..

though neither of them get satisfied they were too egoistical to mention it or

ask more.. Next day

Sun comes out n their routine continues as schedule ..


CHAPTER - II

one day she has to return home earlier... when she comes home n opens

bedroom door , she sees everything normal in the room .. her husband , two

pillows, teddy bear , a water Jug Except an extra 5' 7" feet

creature curling along with her husband in bed .

CHAPTER - III

She made a call to her father ... then she died .

Autopsy Report : suicide , cause of death - opening up veins in bath tub.

CHAPTER - IV

Her father "U killed her, bloody basterd, i dint like u from the start "

He "U r getting too hysterical ,what happened s an unfortunate event n

am feeling sad for u n ur daughter , but dont blame me, i think its bcos of

her condition ..."

Her father "Shut up !! all these days u dint mind about that (BPD) n argued

that she s normal , now to save ur skin u r playing ur cards"

He "Dont use strong words sir .. i find no fault in me, ok let me be open

with u .. i agree i loved her, but i was never satisfied with

her n found soon after marriage that

she can never satisfy me , but i never want to leave her for that reason n so

i found my own way of satisfying myself ..its very normal..think sir.. when u dont

like or bored with homemade food dont u go to hotel or get a parcel of hotel

food to home ..which s precisely what i did :) "

Her Father "I ve never seen such a smooth talking basterd like u in my life ,

i'm going to court of law "

He "ofcourse sir.."

CHAPTER - V

The court was centered around an as usual unenthusiastic n grumpy judge

with no ears for emotions ..

Her Father - This man pushed her to end her life..this must

not be taken as suicide , its a homicide ..

JUDGE - [ after verifying the neatly aligned her prescription files from first visit

of doctor ] was she a known psychiatric patient ?

Her Father - Its irrelevant to case sir ..this man's adultery caused my

daughter's Life ..

JUDGE - was she under treatment for BPD ?

Her Father - Lord ..but this man pushed her to ..

JUDGE [irritatingly]
- was she a patient with bipolardisorder ,under

treatment n do u agree these prescription in files belongs

to her n do u know her psychiatric illness before ..? say yes or no!!

Her Father - YES !!

JUDGE - Case dismissed .

* THE END *

P.s:

Q1- Do u agree with the judgment?

Q2- Do u think He is innocent ?

Q3- Do u believe her cause of death s due to her BPD alone ?